I let someone see the most vulnerable parts of me, and now I feel like they regret it.
I let someone see the most vulnerable parts of me, and now I feel like they regret it
I let someone see the most vulnerable parts of me, and now I feel like they regret it
I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this right now, so I'm posting here.
I'm currently feeling completely shattered. My hands are shaking, I can barely speak, and I feel like I'm having an anxiety attack. I haven't felt this intensely since I was much younger.
There was someone in my life who made me feel really special. I actually warned them in the beginning that I didn't want to get too involved because I know myself. I don't get attached easily, but when I do, I get attached very deeply.
And eventually, I let my guard down with them.
They saw the vulnerable parts of me that I normally don't show people. My insecurities, my emotional side, my baggage, all the things I've spent years protecting. At first, they were incredibly kind and made me feel safe enough to actually open up.
But now they seem like a completely different person.
They don't seem to care when I'm upset. Small things turn into arguments. I don't feel understood or comforted anymore. It feels like they have put their own walls back up after seeing what's behind mine.
And the worst part is that I'm still trying to reach out, even though I know they probably don't want me to.
I've reached a point where I feel like I'm compromising my own self-respect just to maintain some connection with this person. I know I shouldn't be doing it, but emotionally I can't seem to stop.
And my mind keeps telling me that maybe they saw the real me and didn't like it.
Maybe I'm too emotional. Maybe my baggage is too much. Maybe I'm just not the kind of person someone would want once they actually get to know me.
And then I start thinking that maybe I'm simply not attractive enough for them anymore.
I know that's probably not a rational conclusion. But when someone withdraws after you've allowed yourself to be vulnerable with them, it's incredibly easy to interpret it as rejection of you rather than simply a change in their feelings or circumstances.
I don't want to keep begging someone to care about me.
I don't want to keep sacrificing my self-respect because I'm terrified of losing someone.
But right now, I'm hurting so badly that I don't know how to detach.
How do you stop yourself from chasing someone who has already started pulling away, especially when they were the person who made you feel safe enough to lower your guard in the first place?