u/ChubbyNUgly22

I used to think that I wasn’t good enough, that I was alone, and that I was worthless. But that wasn’t true. I realized that I was stupid to believe in that. I can do better, I can do good things, and every little effort that I do in everything is enough. I am enough, and I always will. I used to think that I’m alone, but that’s not true either. I know people who care about me genuinely. I can see some of them try their best to understand me. Maybe I’m alone sometimes, but I can still see the ones who never give up on me even on days that I just feel so sick of myself. I am not worthless. Maybe I feel so disappointed with myself sometimes, but that doesn’t mean I’m worthless. Maybe some people never get tired calling me that sometimes, but that doesn’t mean it was true. I realized that there’s nothing to be ashamed of about myself. I am an amazing person who cares so much for everyone. I love too much. I give a lot. I still choose to be a good person despite all the cruelty that I’ve experienced in life. There is no way that I’ll be a worthless person and no one has the right to call me that in my entire life. I wasted so much time feeling so down because I thought I wasn’t good enough, alone, and worthless. But i will never waste another time feeling the same thing. I am good enough even i am alone and i am worthy. Soon enough, I hope the people around me will see it too.

Hypersensitivity overload. Sounds, emotions and energy shifts all felt too intense. A delayed reply sent me into a spiral of they’re getting tired of me. I hate how deeply i feel everything. Sometimes it feels like both a gift and a burden. I sat with the feeling instead of fighting it.

I am 23 and lately i have realized how lonely i have become. I literally don't have many people i can genuinely talk to so sometimes i end up talking to my own reflection. It sounds pathetic when i say it out loud but the mirror never interrupts me judges my appearance or makes me feel like i am too much or a burden.

When i cry it doesn't laugh.

When i talk about the things that hurt me it doesn't tell me i am being dramatic, immature and clingy

When i sit there feeling unwanted it doesn't make me feel even more invisible.

I have spent so much time feeling like i am the person people overlook. I am extremely sensitive, I overthink almost everything, and i crave genuine connection more than i probably know how to explain but at the same time getting close to people scares me cuz i have experienced enough goodbyes to start expecting them before they happen.

So i have learned to keep a lot inside.

Sometimes i wonder what it would feel like to have one person who genuinely wanted to hear everything I have to say not cuz they felt obligated but cuz they actually cared.

Until then i guess my reflection will keep listening.

It's strange how a piece of glass can sometimes feel safer than people

I am 23 and lately i have realized how lonely i have become. I literally don't have many people i can genuinely talk to so sometimes i end up talking to my own reflection. It sounds pathetic when i say it out loud but the mirror never interrupts me judges my appearance or makes me feel like i am too much or a burden.

When i cry it doesn't laugh.

When i talk about the things that hurt me it doesn't tell me i am being dramatic, immature and clingy

When i sit there feeling unwanted it doesn't make me feel even more invisible.

I have spent so much time feeling like i am the person people overlook. I am extremely sensitive, I overthink almost everything, and i crave genuine connection more than i probably know how to explain but at the same time getting close to people scares me cuz i have experienced enough goodbyes to start expecting them before they happen.

So i have learned to keep a lot inside.

Sometimes i wonder what it would feel like to have one person who genuinely wanted to hear everything I have to say not cuz they felt obligated but cuz they actually cared.

Until then i guess my reflection will keep listening.

It's strange how a piece of glass can sometimes feel safer than people

Hey. I’m 23M from India and I’m really tired of temporary or one-sided friendships that make me feel special for a day and then disappear. The fear of abandonment and sudden silence hurts a lot.

I deal with Alexthymia, ADHD, BPD traits, RSD, CPTSD/PTSD, social anxiety, and a constantly overthinking mind. Because of this I’ve become extremely lonely I have basically zero real connections right now, both online and offline. I’m looking for someone in a similar place: someone who is also very alone, has little to no friends, struggles with self-esteem / feeling unattractive, ugly chubby fat or not enough, and is dealing with mental health stuff. Preferably also unemployed or in a similar low energy life situation so we’re on the same wavelength.

I want a genuine, long-term friendship not casual chatting, timepass, or backup options. I’m quite clingy, possessive, and emotionally intense, and I’m hoping to find someone who feels the same way. Someone who wants to choose each other, give priority, check in regularly, share daily life, and build real emotional closeness.

I value warmth, reassurance, honesty, and that safe feeling of knowing someone is actually there. I would love to talk daily, share random thoughts, have deep late-night conversations, laugh, send memes, and just exist comfortably together. Once we’re comfortable, calls would mean a lot especially if you’re also from India so the connection feels closer.

Please only reach out if:

- You’re genuinely very lonely and don’t currently have meaningful friendships (online or IRL)

- You’re looking for the same kind of clingy, loyal, priority-based long-term friendship

- You’re serious about consistent communication and emotional availability

-You’re from India (big preference for language understanding and eventual calls)

Please don’t message if you are not from indiaor u already have plenty of friends or people's/options, are just bored or are looking for something casual/short-term.

I know this post is heavy, but I’m being honest because I don’t have energy left for anything fake. If you’re also struggling with loneliness, overthinking, and craving real emotional connection with someone who stays, I’d like to hear from you.

Hey. I’m 23M from India and I’m really tired of temporary or one-sided friendships that make me feel special for a day and then disappear. The fear of abandonment and sudden silence hurts a lot.

I deal with Alexthymia, ADHD, BPD traits, RSD, CPTSD/PTSD, social anxiety, and a constantly overthinking mind. Because of this I’ve become extremely lonely I have basically zero real connections right now, both online and offline. I’m looking for someone in a similar place: someone who is also very alone, has little to no friends, struggles with self-esteem / feeling unattractive or “not enough,” and is dealing with mental health stuff. Preferably also unemployed or in a similar low-energy life situation so we’re on the same wavelength.

I want a genuine, long-term friendship not casual chatting, timepass, or backup options. I’m quite clingy, possessive, and emotionally intense, and I’m hoping to find someone who feels the same way. Someone who wants to choose each other, give priority, check in regularly, share daily life, and build real emotional closeness.

I value warmth, reassurance, honesty, and that safe feeling of knowing someone is actually there. I would love to talk daily, share random thoughts, have deep late-night conversations, laugh, send memes, and just exist comfortably together. Once we’re comfortable, calls would mean a lot especially if you’re also from India so the connection feels closer.

Please only reach out if:

- You’re genuinely very lonely and don’t currently have meaningful friendships (online or IRL)

- You’re looking for the same kind of clingy, loyal, priority-based long-term friendship

- You’re serious about consistent communication and emotional availability

-You’re from India (big preference for language understanding and eventual calls)

Please don’t message if you already have plenty of friends or people's/options, are just bored or are looking for something casual/short-term.

I know this post is heavy, but I’m being honest because I don’t have energy left for anything fake. If you’re also struggling with loneliness, overthinking, and craving real emotional connection with someone who stays, I’d like to hear from you.

I caught myself people pleasing again, saying yes when i wanted to say no, softening my needs so I wouldn’t risk being too much. These patterns run deep. I am tired of earning connection by shrinking myself. One honest i need space today was said. Progress.

Mental noise was constant. Overthinking every reply, every tone, every small shift in energy. My brain rarely gives me peace. Living with AuDHD, CPTSD and hypersensitivity means even quiet days can feel loud inside. I rested without calling myself lazy. Small win.

Seven weeks of daily journaling. Some days the noise wins. Some days i feel too intense too sensitive too scared of being forgotten or replaced but this space has become my soft place to land, a place where i don’t have to mask or perform. Thank you for reading these messy, honest pieces of me. If your brain never rests either you’re not alone. We’re still here💛

Quiet outside, loud inside. OCD loops, social anxiety, and dystychiphobia (fear of sudden loss) kept my mind racing. I apologized to myself more times than I can count today. Still showing up here. That matters.

The i am only useful, not truly wanted thought returned. I worried people only stay when I give support or comfort, then slowly fade when they don’t need me. That fear is old and heavy. I’m slowly learning I can be wanted just for existing.

Small win: I didn’t delete this post.

Hypersensitivity day. Everything felt too loud emotions, energy shifts, even kind words sometimes feel suspicious. My nervous system treats small changes like danger. Fear of replacement and abandonment never fully switches off. I sat with the feeling instead of fighting it.

she literally knows how much i really love her. she’s seen it in the way i look at her, the way i always show up, the way i keep choosing her even when it hurts that she wants someone else in her life. I have never hidden it. I have never pretended it was less than it is but the truth is i am not the guy she ever wants. I am not the guy she has ever wanted and deep down i think i have always known it. there’s a special kind of pain in loving someone who fully sees your heart and still doesn’t choose it. It’s not rejection in the loud, dramatic sense. It’s quieter. It’s the slow realization that no matter how much love you pour out, it will never be the kind she needs or the kind that makes her stay. i have spent so much time trying to be enough softer, stronger, more patient, more understanding and hoping that if i just loved her hard enough, she would one day look at me the way i have always looked at her but she doesn’t and she never will. she knows i love her so much and still i am not the one, i am left holding this heavy, one sided love that has nowhere to go. It sits in my chest every day, reminding me that the person i want most in the world will never want me the same way and the worst part is i can’t even be angry at her for it. she never promised me anything. she just never chose me. i don’t know how to stop loving her. i just know that continuing to love someone who will never want me is slowly breaking something inside me that i don’t know how to fix.

Mental exhaustion hit hard. Living with a brain that never truly rests audhd, cptsd, hypersensitivity, constant fear of abandonment is tiring in a way most people can’t see. I felt empty and overstimulated at the same time. Today i rested without guilt. That is progress.

today the overthinking felt endless. i analyzed a short conversation for hours, searching for hidden signs that someone was pulling away. rsd makes every silence feel like rejection. My brain still believes the worst story first. I chose to write it here instead of spiraling alone. That helped

Six weeks of daily journaling. Some days the noise wins. Some days I feel too intense, too sensitive, too scared of abandonment and replacement.

But this space has become my safe place a corner where I don’t have to mask or perform.

Thank you for witnessing these messy, tender thoughts. If your brain never rests either, you’re not alone. We’re still here 💛

Quiet day but the internal noise was loud. OCD loops, social anxiety, and the constant fear of sudden loss (dystychiphobia) kept me on edge. I apologized for existing in my own head more times than I can count.

Still showing up here. That counts.

Hypersensitivity day. Everything felt louder sounds, emotions, energy shifts. A small change in someone’s tone sent me into a spiral of they’re pulling away. I hate how deeply i feel. Sometimes it feels like a gift, other times like a burden. I sat with the feeling instead of fighting it. Progress

I caught myself shrinking again. softening my words, over-apologizing, trying to be easy so i wouldn’t risk being too much. People-pleasing is still my default. childhood taught me love is something I have to earn. I’m slowly unlearning it. One honest boundary set today. It felt scary, but right.

Mental fatigue is real. my brain never seems to rest cuz it constant overthinking, constant scanning for danger in relationships, constant replaying of every word i said. Living with AuDHD, CPTSD and hypersensitivity means even normal days can feel like emotional marathons. Today i rested without calling myself unproductive. That’s growth