33NB. Suicidal crisis. Struggling all the time. All the time. But nobody cares. And I'm just tired. And I want someone to talk to. But I'm probably going to make an attempt on my life tonight because nobody gives a shit.
Please help
Hi everybody! I'm new here, and I'm just looking to express myself because I can't see things clearly right now. That's probably my main struggle.
Whatever I do, it seems like I'm blocked. I can't understand myself, and I hope that writing things down and putting them out there might help me see what I can't see right now.
Everything feels like a big confusion that I don't know how to get through, and it's weighing on me heavily.
One of the things I want to mention is that I never really felt understood by people, and that has been one of the most painful things for me throughout my life. Everything feels distorted and very difficult to explain to anyone I know, and even if I could explain it, I don't feel like it would bring me any relief. That's how I perceive things right now, at least.
I'm honestly not even sure what I'm looking for. I think I just need a person on the other side of the conversation.
I'm not necessarily looking for advice. I'd be happy to have a conversation, answer questions, or simply have someone listen while I try to put my thoughts into words. I might also just keep writing here, little by little, whenever I feel able to. If someone wants to follow along or come back to the conversation later, that would mean a lot to me.
I don't need anyone to have the answers. I think I just need to know that there is someone there.
Not sure what else to say right now. I don't want to write 20,000 words in my first post. I guess this is good enough for a start.
Thank you for reading.
If life’s lately been disturbing you, feel free to talk about it. Recently, I too went through a very difficult situation and talking to strangers helped me a lot. If anyone wants to speak about something feel free to dm me.
Not that i hate stuff i absolutely love life most times.
But then again sometimes I think death cant come soon enough
Idk shit sucks
I feel like this is the worst time of my life. I want to explain my situation to someone and get some reassurance.
I don’t want to put too many details out there, but basically, I am going to move with my kids. I am worried my ex is going to try and get custody when I move.
I am packing my house and it’s the most devastating thing I’ve done. Looking at all my kids stuff and packing it away to start over kills me. I feel like I failed them.
NSFW as some sensitive topics are covered (abuse, sexual assault, etc). Not graphic but could be triggering for some.
I come from a very fragmented family and I am no contact with my parents. My last serious partner was abusive. I she r*ped me, cheated on me (cheated on me on the same day she r*ped me!!), gaslit me, used a victim mentality to manipulate me, physically and socially isolated me from friends and family. Even more happened but it's a lot to type out, and it might dox me.
It was all too much and lead to a mental health crisis. In my MH crisis I lost control and got arrested for DV. I never meant to hurt or scare anyone, my mind and body had been in overdrive for years. I feel awful about what I did even though for over a decade I was putting up with her shit every day. There's a chance she reported me for something else too which was not investigated.
Having no partner or close family makes me feel lonely a lot. Finding a new partner is hard because of my arrest. I use the apps for casual dates but if I told anyone my past I would get banned, so I don't look for serious.
I am scared to meet people romantically in my usual "third spaces" because if people heard my story they might assume I am abusive and inherently violent and I wil get banned or made to feel unwelcome in the places I usually hang out.
This is such an isolating experience. My life is in many ways, good and full, but I would just love to hold someone's hand, have our own little in-jokes, feel the weight of their head on my chest, and feel connected to someone. I don't know if it will happen because of my reluctance to try make that type of connection, but also unfair judgement if I was to disclose my past.
When I see someone on tv or real life achieve something and get celebrated and then their partner cheers for them and hugs them and kisses them and says they’re proud of them, it makes me upset to think if I was in that position no one would be there for me. Every time I see it, it makes me get so upset and my chest aches realising I wouldn’t get that. When I see someone on tv or real life achieve something and get celebrated and then their partner cheers for them and hugs them and kisses them and says they’re proud of them, it makes me upset to think if I was in that position no one would be there for me. Every time I see it, it makes me get so upset and my chest aches realising I wouldn’t get that.
Everything is kinda hurting as I’m really uncertain with a certain situation I’m going through, is there someone I could potentially talk to?
My friend who's have "u/lovestay\_skzoo2018" nickname in reddit just wrote a suicide message to us one hour ago. We can't communicate with her and please send a message to her dm. She is Turkish and a teenager pls be kind and protectful to her. Thank's.
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So my lecturer made me cry today for the first time in these 3 years of university~ I'm someone who is cries really easily and I grew up being quite embarrassed of it; I got it from my grandma. But part of me feels like it can be a strength in its own way; isn't it kinda beautiful to feel others' emotions as my own? I feel like it should be a superpower. A long time ago I decided that I would be defender of the weak and downtrodden, only for life to throw me a curveball and for me to end up being the "weak". Funny how life does that. Well, fortunately, I've the foresight to realise that it isn't a good idea to publicly post my whole history on here but if you can relate, feel free to message me if you wanna be friends. I'm F25, feel more comfortable being friends with fellow girls. God bless!
Hi everyone...It’s kinda hard for me to write this post, but I feel completely overwhelmed and I just really need to talk about and have confort...Yea true that my father Is my only parent,but doesn't justify what i usually live. At home, I live in a constant environment of tension and control, where it feels like every tiny independent choices are considered like errors or rude/disprectful actions...Living like this, things explode out of nowhere for completely stupid reasons... Just today,my 7-year-old sister and I ate ham and crackers instead of waiting for him to buy bread while i didnt even Remember why he got out.He got so much mad just because we didn't "tell him" first. Later,After i cooked the dinner,he slapped me just because I didn't put capers in the pasta like he wanted. A completely exaggearrted and violent reaction to a harmless mistake in the kitchen.I even told him doesn't have point tò use violence over CAPERS but he said that I Just keep minimixing everything.Then even seeing my sister happy or smiling seems to annoy him, as if other people's happiness is somehow a lack of respect toward him when angry I know I'm young, but please don't take this as "typical teenage drama"...because the tension and violence I live with are very real...
I don't think anyone would care if I died. My family treats me like an after thought, I have no friends or partner. I'm just tired. Everyday I feel like I'm going to die. I struggle to sleep, eat, and stay hydrated as wellI really don't want to die this young or at least that's what I tell myself. I just want to feel connection and actually feel cared for for once.
In the night the thoughts are louder.
Trying hardly to sleep but my mind doesn't let me
I wish for someone to care but I look in the wrong place perhaps.
Is my fault, I am not blaming anyone.
Looking for someone who has a compassionate ear and who is also good at giving advice. I have been struggling with dealing with the cards life has dealt me and I'm exhausted and alone. I really need help getting out of a cycle I've been in and am deeply lonely. Would love someone to talk to. Do not reply if you're a creepy guy with any intentions other than to talk and be helpful. Please don't reply if you are flakey, will listen to my story and then ghost. I need someone who will stick with me and not leave me hanging after I've shared what's going on.
Needing anyone to chat to as my thoughts have gotten dark in the past 10-20 minutes and I don’t feel safe around myself at the moment
If anyone wants to be a kind voice for me then dm me on here
It will be finalized right around my birthday. My mom was my best friend but this has put a rift in our relationship and now me and my kids hardly see her, and she doesn’t even seem to care. My dad is distraught and confused and I’m trying to help him through this. It’s just AWFUL and confusing.
I recently just got admitted to a psych ward. Hope that doesnt scare you away! Looking for some strength and comfort while im in here as well as to pass the time.
I’m not looking for someone to tell me to push through or turn a rough evening into a productivity challenge. I’m trying to find a very small hands-on thing where five minutes can still feel like enough. A lot of crafts sound calming until the setup alone takes longer than the amount of attention you have left. Miniature work is interesting because some steps can be tiny sorting pieces, placing one object, attaching one simple paper detail but other parts obviously need more focus and shouldn’t be started when you’re already done for the day. I think the important part is being able to stop without feeling like the whole project failed.
If you have a quiet craft or little ritual that works in very short bursts, I’d really appreciate hearing what makes it easy to come back to instead of another unfinished thing sitting there judging you.