u/Few_Gas_986

I'm stressed everyday of my life, my BP is always 150/102 for 99% of the time. Usually I am able to manage it. Just about 2 and a half weeks ago i had fragmented sleep, didnt eat properly, constantly felt like i wanted to throw up even if i ate something or drank water. Also i didnt get my period this month and usually when i do, its very severe. I usually have low BP, vomit, almost faint and in horrific pain. But about 3-4 days ago everything got worse, i was/ still am unable to eat properly without wanting to throw up, still cannot sleep properly, constantly feel weak aswell, have stomach cramps. I also just recently broke out of a fever 2-3 days prior to this all happening.

I have been to the local clinic to be seen by a male nurse who gave me the following medications:

Allergex tablets
Soflax
Resmed Vitamin B6
Azithromycin 500 Biotech
Dynadol

I didnt have diarrhea before i went to the clinic yesterday, only got it this morning even though i didnt take the Soflax pills he gave me for constipation. I then went to the doctor today to just get a second opinion and told her all of my symptoms. I showed her the current medication i was on and she only added:

Mitil
Podium
Trepiline

The doctor also took my iron (13) and sugar levels (6), She also gave me an injection to help with the feeling of nausea and vomiting though now i have bad stomach cramps that started last night. I do try to eat before i take any medication, drank some Energade to help with the electrolytes and i try to stay hydrated drinking water aswell.

I don't think anyone would care if I died. My family treats me like an after thought, I have no friends or partner. I'm just tired. Everyday I feel like I'm going to die. I struggle to sleep, eat, and stay hydrated as wellI really don't want to die this young or at least that's what I tell myself. I just want to feel connection and actually feel cared for for once.

I don't think anyone would care if I died. My family treats me like an after thought, I have no friends or partner. I'm just tired. Everyday I feel like I'm going to die. I struggle to sleep, eat, and stay hydrated as wellI really don't want to die this young or at least that's what I tell myself. I just want to feel connection and actually feel cared for for once.

I'm the scapegoat of the family, always have been since I was a child. I'm currently 18, turning 19 in November. My first attempt was at the 10 all due to physical, psychological, and emotional abuse everyday of my life. Even though my parents saw this happening to me on the daily, none stepped it. Now everyone in the house ignores me and treats me like an after thought. My child support is used for my little sister instead of me and when I ask for it, it always turns into an argument. My medical needs aren't met either, always everyone else's before mine. I went to the clinic to get something for my sleepless nights because its really getting bad now...but the sister there I went to last time looked busy, told me she's not a psychologist and I had to go away...so I went to the library and sat there about 3 hours, just crying silently in a chair by myself...I'm so stressed that I cant even sleep properly, sleep for 3 hours a day max and stay awake for 11+hours...i just feel like I'm going to throw up too and the thought of eating disgusts me. I have been clean for 10 months now and I really don't want to give into s/h or another attempt because then my abusers will be happy. On top of all of this i still need to study for my exams in Oct/Nov so I can study nursing, get out this house and help others along the way.

i'm dealing with hypertension along with intense health anxiety. in recent years, my BP has went up so, so much...my highest was 165/105. in my younger teen years, i went to the hospital for chest pains but got dismissed as it being anxiety and got some pills to help me relax (no surprise it didnt help). i'm not overweight but i'm in an environment that constantly has me on edge. i'm trying to get into exercising aswell to see if that'll help lower my BP. i'm also trying to fix up my diet. atp, my left arm has been getting pins and needles for the last 2 weeks now and i'm so afraid of going to the hospital because the public hospitals here are really bad. when i went to the public clinic close by, i begged the nurse there to put me on BP meds and i went on them for about 2 weeks. i then went back to get my BP checks and it was 93/6...so the nurse told me to go offit immediately and just told me to relax...like i havent been trying to do that. any advice will help me so, so much...along with some reassurance!

okay so my abusive mother asked me for forgiveness for everything she's done to me, "knowingly and unknowingly" in her words. i'm 18 and had to endure abuse since i was about 4/5 years old, i've always been the scapegoat, forgave my abusers (yes theres more than one but focusing on mother right now)...long story short, the abuse i endured was so sever that i tried to commit suicide at the age of 10, started self-harming at 13/14 and i'm still depressed to this day. also she constantly uses religion to manipulate and gaslight me into thinking that i'm the problem and that i somehow deserved all of this. i cant even have a normal conversation with her without her telling me that i'm possessed or the anti-christ when i call her out on her bullshit. its just a constant cycle of me being the only emotionally mature adult/child in a house full of grown adults. its so fucking exhausting. i told her that if she didnt change, i'd be estranged to her and her response was "likewise"...like i have shit to work on. she expects me to be open arms with her and everything, like her praying to god infront of me, asking him to forgive her instead of asking me for forgiveness. it makes no fucking sense. now i kinda dont know what to do...i've already tried the "grey rock" method and it works most of the time i guess...