when they apologize of the sake of they're own ego/conscience (TW: mentions of suicide, emotional abuse, depression, self-harm)
okay so my abusive mother asked me for forgiveness for everything she's done to me, "knowingly and unknowingly" in her words. i'm 18 and had to endure abuse since i was about 4/5 years old, i've always been the scapegoat, forgave my abusers (yes theres more than one but focusing on mother right now)...long story short, the abuse i endured was so sever that i tried to commit suicide at the age of 10, started self-harming at 13/14 and i'm still depressed to this day. also she constantly uses religion to manipulate and gaslight me into thinking that i'm the problem and that i somehow deserved all of this. i cant even have a normal conversation with her without her telling me that i'm possessed or the anti-christ when i call her out on her bullshit. its just a constant cycle of me being the only emotionally mature adult/child in a house full of grown adults. its so fucking exhausting. i told her that if she didnt change, i'd be estranged to her and her response was "likewise"...like i have shit to work on. she expects me to be open arms with her and everything, like her praying to god infront of me, asking him to forgive her instead of asking me for forgiveness. it makes no fucking sense. now i kinda dont know what to do...i've already tried the "grey rock" method and it works most of the time i guess...