r/TeenVent

I make friends fairly easily, but they are usually fake or just don't have a similar personality. I've just been struggling with sh, and I rlly need a friend who actually can be there for me, but it's rlly hard to find. Not to mention most of my friends don't have depression, but often try to relate to me anyways, making me feel worse. I just rlly want a friend who cares about me, since I'm usually the backup friend.

I need some girl to vent with privately because something bad happened and I don't want to post it publicly

Hi, I dont really care for miss spelling but whatever,
I’m 16 F, I’m currently laying in bed crying from the pain and it’s 4:19 am.
I really hope this is a period thing.
I’m the middle girl and I’ve mever really asked for much, my older sister 19F and younger 9f have always been the scary ones that run to my parents in a thundering night or when having a bad dream or when sick.
I’ve always proudly of myself never really asked for this things and they’ve appreciated that to a large extent, what’s it gonna do? They gonna magically let it go away? Plus it makes me feel bad when they wake up because they’re both busy in the morning.

Anyways, randomly yesterday I think around 5 pm I was laying down, before hand I walked around my house multiple times because I like it with music too. So I was just laying down in my bed scrolling TikTok and I had a what I think is a bad cramp, it started in my lower belly I think or lower, I thought it was just a sign of my period coming soon and I tried to wait it out,
3 hours later it hurts so bad that I can’t even get up to get dinner, I had texted my mom while she was making it that I was hurting but she was kinda annoyed so I stopped that, I really felt like I had to use the bathroom so I had to slowly get myself up and kinda limp, but as soon as I sat on it another cramp just fricking hits me, at this point it hurts so bad, and I had left my phone in my bed so I start yelling for my younger sister instead, she gets me the pain relievers and a cup of water and I thank her.
Btw yelling hurt too, so I’m in the bathroom and for some stupid reason I can’t go, at all, even releasing gas was long and painful, so I wait until I pee just a little, then I go back to my bed.
Then my mom got concerned when another hour in I’m still in bed and I text her that I can’t join dinner because I was in so much pain, she made my favorite (noodles) she goes to my room and I ask for more pills which she says no because I already took 2 so soon, (it felt like they didn’t work)
So she goes get me a heating pad and lets me use it then leaves, it kinda works a little but more sharp when and keep going in.
My dad comes home and asks me if I’m alright and I say no, he says if sucks but tried to make a gay joke, it was lowkey kinda funny and I laugh but I keep trying to stop because that also hurt.
I’m left alone with my mom coming back to take the heating thing to charge it then coming back and giving it to me.
4 hours later my mom tells me to get up and eat something and the pain monetarily went down so I go downstairs slowly, I eat down cereal because some reason the noodles felt like way too much.
Then everyone is going to bed, I lay down, hoping to sleep the pain away, I can’t sleep so I just play on my phone for awhile then put it down to hope to sleep it off.
I’m twisting in turning in pain because everything is painful, it feels horrible, any movement hurts but eventually I fall asleep only to wake up again now 2 hours later because it hurts so bad.
Now I’m freaking crying and I don’t know what to do.

Help me, can I just take some medication? Do I keep trying to sleep it off? My dad has work at 5:10 should I wait? Please I don’t know what to do

Update, I think?: it’s now 5:20
For a little I just layed in my bed, kinda half yelling for help, nothing happened.
I renelented and did it, had to put my shorts standing uop extremely slowly for like 2 minutes and limped holding the rail to my parents room, my dad was in the garage smoking before having to get ready so I went to my mom and I woke her up telling her.
So anywho, she told me to drink more pills and I tried to tell her about the pain but she went back to sleep, so I limped back to my bathroom and took two more pain relievers and while there my dad come up and asked me if I was alright and I said No and he just told me to take more pills while I was taking pills.
wtf do I do, I guess I’m gonna try to fall asleep and hopefully it calms down despite the large pain

Update 2:
My mom got up after like another hour and went to me asking more questions, she was kinda upset at me why I don’t go sooner 💀
Anywho she’s researching with my dad and told me to try to sleep it off and if it doesn’t go away she’ll call my dad to take me to the ER she said though I really doubt it

Update 3: we went, it’s a UTI, thankfully we caught it. I had thought it was just a really bad period.

Here some things:
An untreated UTI can progress from a simple bladder infection to a fatal systemic condition in anywhere from a few days to a few weeks, but once bacteria reach the bloodstream, death can occur in as little as 12 to 24 hours.

It took 19 hours to get me there, had to pee in a cup which took so long because I couldn’t.

Their gonna me antibiotics for 5 days and run more tests. For anyone who might think you got it here are some syndromes:
Severe lower stomach/cramping
Pain lasting many hours without stopping
Pain so bad you were crying
Pain with movement/walking
Limping because of pain
Laughing/yelling hurting
Trouble using the bathroom
Trouble passing gas
Only peeing a little
Heating pad only helping slightly
Pain medicine not helping much
Couldn’t sleep because of pain
Woke back up from sleep because pain was so severe
Twisting/turning from pain
Eating felt difficult
Pain coming in sharp waves/cramps

Do not wait for it to get worse yall it could kill you.
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My mom acknowledged it was wrong for her to shoo me off in the morning and said that normally I don’t have much going on so she hadn’t thought it was a big deal because I’m always alright and take care of myself.
My dad was a little upset that he had to take time off work not gonna lie but then again his not the most emotional person as a veteran, but I still felt bad.
I do admit I have shame asking for things because I’m embarrassed or I hate asking for things.

There goes my record of like 6 or 7 years (lol 6 7)
Without having to go to any type of hospital L.

Thank u guys so much so urging me to go to my parents, I didn’t know it could be deadly and I was just gonna wait it out, I try to update if something else happens but I doubt it, thank u guys 🔥🔥🫶🫶🫶

I’m a high school junior, and I’ve been struggling all year with AP classes, but my mother doesn’t seem to understand that and always tells me I’m lazy. Honestly, this isn’t the first time I’ve thought about running away. I’ve considered it since I was younger, but I always decided against it because I knew there would be serious consequences. However, I think I may actually do it this year.

My biggest problem with my mom is that nothing I do ever seems good enough. When I get a good grade in a class, her response is always, “You could do better.” It feels like she undermines my efforts when I succeed and dismisses my struggles as laziness when I don’t.

Growing up, I would get beaten with a belt if I got anything lower than a B in my classes, which is considered normal in my culture. For years, fear became my only motivation to succeed academically. Instead of helping me build discipline or confidence, it damaged my motivation and made school feel more like something to survive than something to learn from. Now that I’m getting older and preparing for college, I realize that constantly being motivated by fear is unhealthy and will likely make life even harder for me in the future.

People in my society hate me for no reason. There's this girl who fucked up my life and reputation for no reason. She was my friend, we just randomly stopped talking and she fucked me up. I don't know why. My reputation is fucked so I'm unable to have friends, and the 2 friends I had left me to be with her. I would love to still be her friend, I don't know why she did that. I don't know why they hate me. I don't know why they spread fake shit about me. Can someone tell me the possible reasons why she did that?

I 18F have been friends with my best friend 16F for 5 years. We've had our friendship break-ups before but its different now im older and ive realized a couple of things

she is TOXIC.

she hates my bf for no reason (ive never given her a reason to not like him)

she told me my bf would leave me if i got pregnant

she talks crap about anyone and everyone (it makes me wonder if she does the same about me)

she hates any other friends i used to or hangout with

theres more but thats enough for me to stop being her friend

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Once i told her me and my bf "did the deed" she told me to tell her everytime we do because she doesnt want me having sex all the time (we are safe and its mutual) but i think its very weird and its makes me uncomfy i dont know what to say or how to say it i really need advice we havent hungout for a while and we barely text anymore. i really need advice

Ive realized i need to let go and take care of my feelings instead of other peoples.

I go to school every single day and don’t talk to anyone. Like genuinely no one. I wake up, get ready, go there, sit in silence, come home, repeat. That’s my life right now. I sit there watching everyone else laugh with their friends, complain about teachers, make plans for after school, act like normal teenagers, and I just feel like I’m behind glass watching it happen. I’m there physically, but that’s about it. Nobody notices me. Nobody looks for me. I honestly don’t think it would make a difference if I stopped showing up. Like I’m genuinely nobody’s first choice at all.

Then I come home, and it’s not relief. It’s just another thing to survive. My mom is high, angry, yelling, slamming things around, and the whole house feels heavy the second I walk in. I never know what version of her I’m coming home to, so I’m always tense before I even open the door. A few times, things have been thrown at me or near me, and it still makes home feel unsafe. Home is supposed to be where you can rest, but I feel more drained there than anywhere else. Istg literally all she does it scream. When I was younger o wasn’t allowed to speak, run around etc. I very clearly remember as a child being forced to swallow a spoonful of what I’m assuming was Ammonia. I couldn’t breathe properly for a long time. I’ve been locked in rooms, beaten, hit over literally nothing. I’ve even had cigarettes put out all over my shoulders. As I result I think I developed ptsd. I’m scared of beer bottles, smokes, cords, buckets, certain chemicals and cannot stand loud noises or small spaces like closets. I’m scared of literally everything and it’s exhausting. But things at home are now significantly better.

So I go to my room and lay in bed. That’s it. Every fucking day. I just lay there and rot. Scroll on my phone. Stare at the ceiling. Fall asleep. Wake up tired. Repeat it all again. I’m genuinely sooo fucking tired and I hate it, i literally can’t even bring myself to do homework or anything I just procrastinate and procrastinate.

Pretty much everyday now I leave and go on long walks just to get away from that house. I’ll walk for an hour or more with nowhere to go, just because outside feels easier to breathe in than inside. I walk until my feet hurt because it’s still better than sitting in that tension. But then I get in trouble for leaving. That part messes with me the most. I get treated like I’m unwanted when I’m there, but somehow I’m wrong when I’m not. It feels like no matter what I do, I’m a problem. Like i genuinely don’t know what the fuck they want from me I really don’t.

School is falling apart too. I haven’t handed in a single thing for math. Literally nothing. I’m pretty sure I have a zero. I’m so far behind I don’t even have my learner’s licence yet while everyone else seems to be moving forward with their lives. Every day I think about catching up, fixing things, being normal again, but then I just freeze. My brain feels burnt out before the day even starts. And I just want to lay in bed and stay there.

I’m a military cadet and I have a high rank, which sounds impressive until you realize I barely feel like I can lead anyone. I’m constantly getting screamed at, corrected, expected to know everything, expected to hold it together. People see the rank and think I’m capable, but half the time I feel like I’m barely functioning. And despite the rank I barely have any leadership positions because of my captain’s favouritism towards other cadets when I’ve quite literally been there the longest like wtf.

I honestly haven’t had a real conversation in months. Like actual months. Not one where someone wanted to hear me talk, asked how I was, cared about what I said, anything. I’ve gone so long without connection that silence feels normal now. I don’t even know how to explain how sad that is. You can get so used to being alone that it starts to feel permanent. Like I just get home go to my room and fucking cry in silence. I barely even eat anymore. I weigh a whole 83lbs I’m barely alive.

Even the things I feel are confusing. I don’t know why I only seem to want men twice my age, why comfort always feels tied to people who feel older, safer, more in control. I don’t know what that says about me. I just know everything feels messy in my head. Like there’s genuinely something fucked in my brain or something because what teen thinks about having a life with grown men, or even my teachers? I disgust myself so bad.

And honestly, I feel fucking dumb. Like everyone else got handed some guide to life that I missed. Everyone else seems to know how to do basic things, how to keep up, how to talk to people, how to handle life, and I’m just here failing at all of it. Like dude I’m in grade 11 and don’t know my multiplication tables.

And lately all I want is alcohol. Not because I think it’s fun or cool or whatever. I just want something to make my head quiet for once. Something to make everything feel softer for a little bit. Something to shut off how tired I am inside. I’m exhausted in a way sleep doesn’t fix. I’m tired of waking up. Tired of school. Tired of home. Tired of acting okay. Tired of carrying everything by myself and still having to do it all again tomorrow.

Lkke im genuinely so done. I just want someone to put me first and have like an actual freind that would choose me first.

i don't even know if i even have the right to post here, i'm doing much better than 90% people on this sub, whatever, just downvote me if you don't want me here and go on with your day.

i don't know what i am doing anymore, today was even a good day and yet the second i remain by myself, with no one to talk to, it feels as i'm back to those days.i don't have friends in real life, just online, they're all busy now. I'm also in a relationship, with someone i genuinely love, but i just feel like a horrible partner even when told i'm not.

i feel pathetic and worthless, school doesn't make the situation any better, nor do private after school lessons.
i absolutely despise myself both mentally and physically, i could have dysmorphia but i don't want to make people who actually have it upset, so i'll keep it at a "could".

there's only two things that help me: helping people and cutting myself, i feel ashamed to say that second thing because i'm not as deep (metaphorically and literally) in it as other people.

all i have to say, i don't feel like writing anymore.

I'm 13 and becoming a different person and I don't know what to do because I have been trying to stop jerking off for a while but I continue it's not even fun it feels like a job I cant quit and I have a very deep case of depression that nobody knows about I'm displaying myself as someone I'm not anymore and I'm tired of it and I need help I really want to stop but I can't and it brings a lot of stress which means that all i do all day is eat I'm heavier than my friends and I'm stuck my friends are noticing that there are bags under my eyes I stay up late usually even on school night 5:00 or 6 I'm posting this at 4 I'm done but I cant quit

At this point, posting on Reddit is screaming into the void here i go again. So I made a previous post on here about something that got leaked that's personal, and I just had one of my best friends block me on Instagram and say she wants to take a break from me. I have two real friends left, and they are amazing but at school now I am so socially isolated. I take specialized classes where you have a bunch of classes with the same people, and these classmates got sent the personal thing and now I can't even participate in class without snickering, I can't even talk without feeling the tension and feeling like they don't want me there. So yeah, that's my post and the only bright side I have is I have like a month left of school and I hope that everybody just forgets about this over the summer.

Hello everyone, pretty much what i said up there, thank you to anyone who replies.

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i feel so so so fat all the time, but everytime i ask anybody if they think i look fat they always just say something like “be so for real” and it makes me so upset because im not fishing for compliments ever i just want someone to be honest to me about how i look. i tried on my swimsuits for summer today and i just feel so awful

Am I a sinner even if they were the one to break the forever vow first? am I soupposed to be a yearner for them?

Even if I'm a sinner nothing feels real without sin neither deed

But on those naive humans they end up sinning when they try to deed

But shamefull aint i?admiting with full pride? and continue to do the same sin over and over Yes, I agree I'm a snake in a swan's I'm not thruthful I'm selfless neither loyal, but whats better than to be selfish than getting hurt by another?...

maybe I have intense jealousy. Even if i dont talk to that person .. how pathetic it is of me to claim a person as 'MINE' even if ik i never exist or existed to them... but they live somewhere in my in the corner of my mind..it is impossible to take them out..

maybe tht why I hate you.. Even if I don't know how much of it is true

This is a vent. I have 3 days left of school. I’m on my last assignment for english (technically 3 assignments which is an outline, rough draft, and final draft). I have a 504 in plan that left me have temporary 0’s in for at least 1 essay at a time. So this is one i got stuck on for a long time so i used my 504 for it. I need my english teacher to reopen it so i can turn in my outline. Then once he grades that I can take his feedback and do the rough draft, take his feedback for that and do the final draft. The thing is, when i emailed him asking for him to do this. He said he can only open the final draft or he would be breaking school policy. He’s done this 3 times since i’ve used my 504 3 times for essays. It takes so long for my mom to email him and the principal before the principal finally makes him open it up. I only have 3 days. It’s genuinely pissing me and my mom off so bad. He keeps ignoring my 504 saying “it’s against school policy”. No shit dude, a 504 rewrites a school rule to fit the student better. Ever since I used my 504 the first time, he also seems to only give me C’s on my essays. I have a learning disability that makes language harder for me. But i get help from my mom and grandma who proofread it. My grandma was a college english teacher. She says some of his feedback is complete bullshit or he’s just extremely strict and by the book. Like i’ve have 5 essays. All of the final drafts are C’s which each is 8% of my final grade. This has my grade stuck at a C. All the other work i’ve done is a high B or an A. On one of my essays he even gave me a 79.5…are we fucking for real 😭😭😭