u/Even_Power_9222

Ok so since the start of school after summer break I(14M) have been consistently bullied by my friend. I can't believe I actually came to school excited to see him. The first thing he greeted me with was him and some other guy making fun of my hair behind my back but loud enough for me to hear. At the time I thought he was still my friend so I tried opening up some conversations with him, but he just kept shutting me down. Throughout the day they just kept making fun of everything I did. I also found out that on the same day he was also telling my brother about how I'm so annoying, and when I confronted him about it he was lying to my face. Next day he was doing the same day. Towards the end of the third day, it was affecting me so badly that I decided to confront him about how he keeps doing it and it's affecting me, and he starts talking about how I deserve it because I sleep through classes and not write down in my book when teacher's teaching stuff and my minor hygiene issues(yeah at the time I had minor hygiene issues like eating messy but I'm working on it) and at the time I was just so angry and tired and betrayed that I just broke down. I don't really remember what happened in it, but I do know I was screaming at him, banging my desk, and crying. They kept doing it for the days following. Fast forward to a some days ago, my ex-friend wrote a letter to my brother, basically talking about how he's right and I'm wrong for getting angry at him and talking about my issues like sleeping through classes and he even also sent a printed out screenshots of me angrily ranting out the other guy on Instagram about their behaviour(before that he was insulting me too, so I just had it w him), calling mean for swearing and being angry at them. Really in those messages, even though they had profanity, I was just saying I'm tired of their behaviour. Idk, I just don't feel worth it anymore, I also have to deal with someone who I used to talk to that had a boyfriend the entire time and framed me as a stalker. I just feel like hurting myself a lot. I'm so worthless, I don't deserve anything. I hate myself.

Ok so since the start of school after summer break I(14M) have been consistently bullied by my friend. I can't believe I actually came to school excited to see him. The first thing he greeted me with was him and some other guy making fun of my hair behind my back but loud enough for me to hear. At the time I thought he was still my friend so I tried opening up some conversations with him, but he just kept shutting me down. Throughout the day they just kept making fun of everything I did. I also found out that on the same day he was also telling my brother about how I'm so annoying, and when I confronted him about it he was lying to my face. Next day he was doing the same day. Towards the end of the third day, it was affecting me so badly that I decided to confront him about how he keeps doing it and it's affecting me, and he starts talking about how I deserve it because I sleep through classes and not write down in my book when teacher's teaching stuff and my minor hygiene issues(yeah at the time I had minor hygiene issues like eating messy but I'm working on it) and at the time I was just so angry and tired and betrayed that I just broke down. I don't really remember what happened in it, but I do know I was screaming at him, banging my desk, and crying. They kept doing it for the days following. Fast forward to a some days ago, my ex-friend wrote a letter to my brother, basically talking about how he's right and I'm wrong for getting angry at him and talking about my issues like sleeping through classes and he even also sent a printed out screenshots of me angrily ranting out the other guy on Instagram about their behaviour(before that he was insulting me too, so I just had it w him), calling mean for swearing and being angry at them. Really in those messages, even though they had profanity, I was just saying I'm tired of their behaviour. Idk, I just don't feel worth it anymore, I also have to deal with someone who I used to talk to that had a boyfriend the entire time and framed me as a stalker. I just feel so worthless, I don't deserve anything. I hate myself.

I genuinely am so tired, I don't even know what to do anymore. I(14M) am actively being bullied by mostly who I thought was my friend. Seriously. I came back from summer holidays excited to see him, but the first thing I was greeted by was him and some other guy making fun of my hair. Not even to my face, they were sitting behind, laughing amongst themselves about it but just loud enough for me to hear. Then throughout the day they just kept doing the same. At the time I thought he was still my friend, so I tried striking up conversations with him, but he just kept shutting me down. I even found out later that he was talking bad about me to my own brother, calling me annoying, and when I confronted him, he just tried lying straight to my face about the whole situation. The next day they kept doing the same thing, they were making fun of quite literally everything about me, it was genuinely so torturous. On the third day after summer break, I told him that I could hear what he was saying about me and that it was genuinely affecting me. They responded to me saying I deserved it, because of hygiene issues(yeah at the time I had a bit of trouble with hygiene, such as having water around my mouth after drinking water or eating a little messy), that I slept through classes and didn't pay attention/write anything down. At that point I was just feeling so tired and betrayed and angry and done with everything that I just broke down. I can't remember a lot of what happened but I know I was screaming at them loudly for what they were doing, banging on my desk and crying a lot. Yeah, after I came home, I blocked one of the guys on Instagram(that guy did, but my ex-friend didn't) and then later on I find that he wrote a sincere looking apology in the dms of my alt account. I don't know what's with this guy, but he constantly goes from being hostile to me to then apologizing and then going back to it within the span of hours/days. Yeah, so I took it, but my ex-friend didn't really apologize. I mean the teachers made him, but because I was still in such a bad mood and angry with what they didn't, I didn't take it at all. Fast forward to a few days ago, they're still doing it. It's so torturous. Around the same time, I find out he(my ex-friend) wrote a letter to my brother, basically saying he's in the right and I'm in the wrong and I should apologize. Inside it, he takes stuff I said out of context, made up situations(e.g. he made up some interaction where I said I curse his entire family in somali(???)), and blamed me for my reaction to whatever he was doing, saying he did nothing wrong, and was just saying he was being uncomfortable with stuff about me, and I thew a tantrum because of that and I should apologize for being mean and bullying him and betraying him. He's again also saying I deserved it because I sleep through classes and even pointing out one time when I ate during math class(I was just hungry). Seriously, I don't know what to do. He also sent my brother a printed out screenshot taken out of context of me angrily ranting to the other guy about his behaviour with me swearing, saying I'm mean for swearing at him. By the way, he was leaving out him actually making fun of me. I cannot escape it, he's doing this everywhere, getting people involved in making fun of me, even knocking me banging on my desk and then making fun of me for crying. I'm so angry I feel like hurting myself. I feel so unwanted, I also am dealing with someone I was talking too, who had a boyfriend the entire time and then framed me as a stalker to get away with cheating. I can't catch a break ever.

I don't know where to talk about this to anyone, but I(14M) just feel so unwanted on this earth. I have friends, but they don't feel that close and I'm never a first option for anyone. The one time I fell in love, I managed to get into the talking stage, but within 9 hours of being with her, I found out she was dating someone. No one takes me seriously as a person, and I've been a target for bullying since middle school. It's genuinely so annoying. Just last month, I came back to school after the summer holidays, excited to see one of my friends. First thing I got from him was him making fun of my slightly messy hair behind my back with some other guy. Jim and that other person continuously made fun of me and judged everything I did behind my back, intentionally loud enough for me to hear everything(they sat right behind me) and it got to the point where I broke down. Everyone just made fun of my reaction and moved on. Later that month, I started talking to a girl, things looked like it clicked, but when we decided to start getting a little more in that direction, with 9 hours she blocked me and tried framing me as a stalker because she wanted to get away with the fact that she got into a talking stage with someone while also dating another person. It's genuinely so annoying. I have no best friend, no friend group, and rarely invited to functions. My grades are also falling off significantly, and I'm not good in any sports

I don't know where to talk about this to anyone, but I(14M) just feel so unwanted on this earth. I have friends, but they don't feel that close and I'm never a first option for anyone. The one time I fell in love, I managed to get into the talking stage, but within 9 hours of being with her, I found out she was dating someone. No one takes me seriously as a person, and I've been a target for bullying since middle school. It's genuinely so annoying. Just last month, I came back to school after the summer holidays, excited to see one of my friends. First thing I got from him was him making fun of my slightly messy hair behind my back with some other guy. Jim and that other person continuously made fun of me and judged everything I did behind my back, intentionally loud enough for me to hear everything(they sat right behind me) and it got to the point where I broke down. Everyone just made fun of my reaction and moved on. Later that month, I started talking to a girl, things looked like it clicked, but when we decided to start getting a little more in that direction, with 9 hours she blocked me and tried framing me as a stalker because she wanted to get away with the fact that she got into a talking stage with someone while also dating another person. It's genuinely so annoying. I have no best friend, no friend group, and rarely invited to functions. My grades are also falling off, and I'm not good in any sports.

I know this whole story probably sounds stupid, but since the start of school after the summer break, my friend started behaving differently to me. He and some other person(who would just go up to me and start insulting me on random stuff) would sit behind me and just make fun, criticize(not to my face, behind me but loud enough for me to hear) and gossip about me on random stuff, such as my hair being messy, me looking out of the window, my music taste, and just random stuff. My ex-friend was even talking bad about me to my brother. It got to a point where I broke down in front of everyone because of this situation because I was so tired of what was going on. The other guy came home to make a sincere looking apology on the surface(he doesn't keep apologies, this was no exception), and my ex-friend didn't even come to school the next day, made a strawman when confronted about the situation, and never apologized.

Fast forward to today, nothing has changed. I can still see them make faces at me as if I'm some criminal or something, they intentionally gossip in front of me, and a lot of other stuff. That's when I decided to give them a taste of their own medicine and see how it feels for me. I start making surface level insults and sarcastic comments(e.g. he thinks he looks tough, he's so cool, like that), and laughing and stuff. That's when they started making up lies and telling the teacher stuff about me and complaining about stuff I do which they do to me(like swearing) just to get me in trouble

Idk, I think I might be wrong for even doing that, and to any readers, I know this just sounds like stupid school drama, which I agree, but it's been affecting me, so AITA?

I know this whole story probably sounds stupid, but since the start of school after the summer break, my friend started behaving differently to me. He and some other person(who would just go up to me and start insulting me on random stuff) would sit behind me and just make fun, criticize(not to my face, behind me but loud enough for me to hear) and gossip about me on random stuff, such as my hair being messy, me looking out of the window, my music taste, and just random stuff. My ex-friend was even talking bad about me to my brother. It got to a point where I broke down in front of everyone because of this situation because I was so tired of what was going on. The other guy came home to make a sincere looking apology on the surface(he doesn't keep apologies, this was no exception), and my ex-friend didn't even come to school the next day, made a strawman when confronted about the situation, and never apologized.

Fast forward to today, nothing has changed. I can still see them make faces at me as if I'm some criminal or something, they intentionally gossip in front of me, and a lot of other stuff. That's when I decided to give them a taste of their own medicine and see how it feels for me. I start making surface level insults and sarcastic comments(e.g. he thinks he looks tough, he's so cool, like that), and laughing and stuff. That's when they started making up lies and telling the teacher stuff about me and complaining about stuff I do which they do to me(like swearing) just to get me in trouble

Idk, I think I might be wrong for even doing that, and to any readers, I know this just sounds like stupid school drama, which I agree, but it's been affecting me, so AITA?