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I grew up seeing things about sex and nudity that I probably wasn't ready for

I grew up in a crowded home with almost no privacy. When I was around 12–13, I accidentally witnessed adult family members having sex several times because we all slept in the same shared space. They never knew I had seen them, and I never told anyone. I also occasionally happened to see family members changing clothes because of the lack of privacy at home.

At the time, I didn't fully understand sex. The first time I saw it, I was frightened and confused, but also curious about what was happening. Nobody ever talked to me about sex or anatomy, so I eventually tried to understand it on my own and later learned about sex largely through pornography.

Now I'm 28 and finally have my own room. I genuinely enjoy sleeping naked when I'm alone because it feels comfortable and freeing. But I've also become stuck in a cycle of watching porn in my room. I particularly enjoy looking at women's bodies and breasts, and I find myself wanting to be naked while watching. I sometimes wonder whether this is simply normal sexual behavior or whether my childhood experiences and years of porn use have influenced it.

Is this normal? If not, how can I break this cycle and develop a healthier relationship with nudity and sexuality?

I grew up in a crowded home with almost no privacy. When I was around 12–13, I accidentally witnessed adult family members having sex several times because we all slept in the same shared space. They never knew I had seen them, and I never told anyone. I also occasionally happened to see family members changing clothes because of the lack of privacy at home.

At the time, I didn't fully understand sex. The first time I saw it, I was frightened and confused, but also curious about what was happening. Nobody ever talked to me about sex or anatomy, so I eventually tried to understand it on my own and later learned about sex largely through pornography.

Now I'm 28 and finally have my own room. I genuinely enjoy sleeping naked when I'm alone because it feels comfortable and freeing. But I've also become stuck in a cycle of watching porn in my room. I particularly enjoy looking at women's bodies and breasts, and I find myself wanting to be naked while watching. I sometimes wonder whether this is simply normal sexual behavior or whether my childhood experiences and years of porn use have influenced it.

Is this normal? If not, how can I break this cycle and develop a healthier relationship with nudity and sexuality?