Venting - growing older as a woman
Hi my favourite people.
This vent is about grief and anxiety of growing older. Im new to adulthood. Ive faced a lot of loss in life, of people, dreams and my sense of self. Ive been through hardships at a very young age and might as well say "matured early" in a way.
As Im growing older I feel like I missed the train to the life Id always dreamt to. Its getting farther away from me. I have come to accept that I might never find my partner to marry. Ive always been of the mindset that its okay to marry late, but right now, its hitting me that my partner will never see me at my prime, and he will never get to grow with me. This is a painful realization after ending a long term relationship so Im not going to move on immediately either, Im not in a mood to date.
Im also being made aware how differently people treat women when theg grow older. When I was younger or a child, it was always, you can do whatever you want and be yourself. Now people tell me to grow up and act like your age. Having stood up and backed many older women, I dont feel supported myself.
This is a vent, hopefully one that I will look back and say I made it little one. But for today and now, I feel scared.