Just realized I have zero patience for… anything? And I never finish things “well”
I realized I don’t just struggle with starting things, I genuinely have almost no patience to see something through to a good finish, even when I’m actively trying to focus and even when I care about the outcome..
For example:
- Painting my nails: I focus, I go slow, I’m careful… and then right at the very last nail, or the last coat, I rush it and mess it up. Every. Single. Time.
- Painting a wall: same story. Cruising along fine, then the last little stretch I suddenly speed up and get sloppy. This applies to all DIY (home) projects btw
- Learning guitar (and honestly every other hobby/sports): obsessed for the first few weeks, then a couple months in I just… stop.
- Cleaning: I’ll clean an entire room and somehow “forget” one random section exists.
- Sewing a hole shut: mess it up like 100 times, get so fed up that I rush the last attempt and it looks terrible.
- Planning activities: want to do something, but start planning way too late so it turns into a rush job or doesn’t happen at all.
- Decorating my place: get excited, make a Pinterest board, save three pins… and then just abandon the whole idea.
I even rush taking a shower, making food or having to pee (I kid you not) which is ridiculous. Because my apartment is not ‘cozy’ and ‘chill’ enough I rarely invite people over but I put in no effort to change it etc.
It’s like my brain has a hard stop on patience right before the finish line, or the second the “new and interesting” part is over, I just can’t make myself care enough to do the last bit properly. Even on meds.
It’s honestly one of the more frustrating parts of having ADHD for me. It just looks like I don’t try hard enough or don’t care, when really I do care, my brain just checks out at the worst possible moment. I would also just really like to actually finish something sometime/ organize things for friends or be good/ handy at something.
Does this resonate with anyone else? Would love to hear how you all deal with this.