u/Familiar_Outside7072

As the title indicates, having a physical biological organic body is awful. Having a material body is terrible. The daily regular maintenance it* requires is taxing, undignified, time wasting, disgusting, pathetic. I really feel this way.

I "hate" it. The body tires so easily, gets sick so easily. Whether healthy or less healthy* or unhealthy, the human body requires so much to keep going.

It's uncomfortable. Having to maintain it every single day is a boring exhaustive chore. Having to be subjected to the same daily biological functions and daily bodily routine of consumption, hydration, biological waste, every single day. ... I can't stand it.

This may read as dramatic. But I have been thinking this and feeling this way for many years.

I often wish I was an immaterial disembodied spiritual being. This physical body is a chore. And no, transhumanism and posthumanism would not solve this dilemma since that would just mean going from a biological organic body to uploading a copy of 'consciousness' or personality into an artificial synthetic material body that would still require ongoing physical (and technological) maintenance. I rather be a God/Goddess than a cyborg.

The idea that some of us 'chose' to come here, that we intentionally swapped out weightless immaterial light bodies and spirit bodies for the weight of biological physical avatars, or what some folks would it a more edgier vernacular call 'meat suits' or 'flesh prisons', and we switched out being light body spiritual beings for the weight, toll, discomfort, aches and pains, and aging of these* physical avatars...it is difficult to fathom.

I can agree with folks who discern that perhaps some of us did not realize how heavy and dense this reality would seriously be and how difficult it would seriously be on our energy and how difficult the organic bodily experience is.

I haven't posted here in awhile but felt called to do so.

Perhaps some others can relate.

I have read some astral projector testimonies of folks saying they prefer being in their astral body because of how light they feel, near weightless almost. Also, if your biological body has health problems, chronic conditions, medical problems, is aging, is generally uncomfortable, has certain aches, discomforts, pains, is badly fatigued, feels physically 'weak', or your physical biological body is overweight or has other issues such as skin conditions, organ problems, digestive issues, immune disorders, etc. Then stepping outside of your physical body is likely experienced as a major relief!

This is honestly one of the things motivating me to want to learn to eventually astral project...I am not actively sui-xi-dal but I look forward to leaving this Earth reality or Earth plane and leaving this timeline. I have felt this way for awhile. The lessons have definitely inspired painful growth, maturation, and personal spiritual evolution. I do feel 'stronger' in certain ways but I am also fed up with this reality and feeling increasingly ready to move on. I do not have the typical 'savior complex' of some folks in some of these starseed communities. I have outgrown that and do not want to save humanity or necessarily raise the Earth's vibration per se.

I have dedicated an immense amount of my personal energy spanning decades to supporting, giving, helping, encouraging, motivating, backing and building others, often at my own detriment and at a cost. I have experienced a lot of pain and wasted energy, effort, and time, pouring into others, nurturing others, nourishing others, supporting others, in which numerous people have greatly benefitted off of me, whether benefitting from my creativity, resources, emotional support, social support, moral support, financial support, invested time, energy, benefitting from off of my ideas, etc. That area of my empathy and compassion is severely drained. Let others 'raise the vibration'. I have less and less of an interest in saving others or serving others in the ways I have in the past.

Many folks here* (here as in human society and Earth's human civilizations* not necessarily this SubReddit specifically**!) do not actually want help and do not actually want to be 'saved'. Some people's karmic lessons down here is to learn to 'save themselves'. It is why going out of your way above and beyond for others will often backfire or fall a part, or the person returns back to repeat certain negative cycles, because they have to figure out learning their lessons and solving their own problems and issues without other people (including 'light workers', 'empaths', and well intended 'starseeds') intervening!

Some people are down here to 'learn the hard way' without a well intended, good faith, good Samaritan, kind soul, swooping in to save the day!

But I digress since I started this post talking about the tragedy of having a physical biological material body to experience this entrophic material reality.

Anyways, I look forward to leaving this reality. I have learned and gather a lot of lessons already that have successfully scarred me for this lifetime and perhaps future non-Earth ones as I have no serious intentions or plans to return to an Earth timeline such as this one. I'd prefer leaving before the A.I skynet/A.I technodystopian surveillance matrix timeline is fully cemented. We are already on our way there, for the most part but I rather this post not spiral into the technopolitical.

I am strongly Anti A.I, so no, no "AI or GenAI" was used to type any of this. I am typing directly from my own original thoughts and typing out directly from my own stream of consciousness. I do not outsource my thinking skills and writing skills to machine programs.

I don't want a biological organic body.

I don't want an artificial synthetic robotic material one.

I refuse to plug in. I want 'out' of the physical reality trap. The only body worth acquiring or ascending to is an Astral Body, Light Body, Crystalline Body, Diamond Body, or Rainbow Body. That's it. -n.x.familiar.

edited for typos*.