u/Famous-Appeal-9212

I feel like im always gaslighting myself into believing that I actually have a crush on the most random men ever for just for thinking they look attractive even though i really dont actually think about dating them, is that normal???

Like sometimes I'll go through phases where i keep telling myself that im actually in love with a boy or think some random thing he does is attractive, then a couple days after I'll get over that and come to the conclusion that i dont actually like them only to move on to another random boy and convince myself that i have a crush on him instead and so on and its just so confusing idkk

I also feel like im not sure if i should keep using the lesbian label even though I have for a while because i genuinely cant tell what is me making myself believe that i actually like men when i dont and what is genuine, its really bothering me helppppp 😭

So im pretty butch, which i felt like my mom pretty much has to notice at this point since I dress like someones dad basically every day. But the other day when we passed by a store that sold dresses she was telling me about how I could get one there for my next prom.

How should I go about telling her that I dont really want to wear a dress this time? Shes gotten way more supportive but i dont know if she gets being butch yet. Ive always just told her that the reason I get all my clothes from the men's section was because the fit me better and it took her literal years to let me get my hair cut short, which I also told her I wanted just because I got hot with it being long and she was still kind of weird about it even then.

I might just do what I usually do and tell her that I want to wear a suit just because dresses are usually uncomfortable, which is at least partially true. But i also dont want her thinking of other stuff I could do that still involves not wearing a suit if she thinks the reason I dont want to wear a dress is only because I dont like being uncomfortable.

I ofc wont die on the spot or anything if I HAVE to wear a dress this time and I have plenty of time to figure something out, but i just really need help deciding on what I should do until then.