u/Famous_String_6808

Okay so, I have no sexual interest towards men. They as a whole, don’t arouse me in the slightest. Like men’s bodies just do not attract me. But trans people have caught my attention a few times. I’ve experimented with toys and such but have always just been curious about trying the real thing just one time. But men don’t interest me. I’m very confused. lol I’d love to try the real thing at least one time in my life but I don’t even know how about to go about that in a respectful manner.

Edit- I am a man. Can’t believe I didn’t clarify that 🤦‍♂️

From leaving my ex of 3 years last year because she stole money from me to feed her gambling addiction while I was working three jobs, then to getting back into drinking again and getting myself in trouble. (I’m better now) but then to watching my dog die not long after, my poor little guy didn’t deserve to die like that. Then to being in a new relationship. She was there for the death of my dog and was by my side the whole time. Fast forward and we were together for a year, already living together. She disrespected me in so many ways it just seemed like she didn’t care about me. I’m not perfect and I responded with harsh words sometimes. We were just WAY too toxic together… but I tried to stay and make it work. Then she blew me off on our 1 year anniversary for some girl she just recently met at work. I’d like to add that both of these women are bisexual. She started acting very different once she met this girl. After she blew me off on our own anniversary I left her. I just couldn’t handle it anymore. My life was finally going so well before this. I have a great job. I finally have money. I had a routine. I was starting to read and learn and just start progressing myself. We still lived together for a few days after the breakup.. she basically forced me out of there. I work nightshift and I slept on the couch so she could have the bed. It was hers anyway. But she would purposely wake me up playing loud music and just talking shit on me in the room. I couldn’t handle it so I got my half of rent back from her for the month and now I’m living at my parents for a month until my new place is ready to be rented out. I know I’ll be okay but I just don’t feel the same anymore. I don’t have energy to do anything anymore. I’ve lost interest in everything. No one talks to me anymore, all of my friends disappeared years ago. They just moved on and I barely hear from them besides my one good friend, but I barely get to see him either. And the girl I was just with had a cat that I became very close with. He was at my hip all the time. He never left my side. He was my buddy and I just had to up and leave and he’s probably so confused. 😕 I’m basically starting all over AGAIN and I’m just genuinely so tired man. I’m just trying to work as much as I can and save for my future. It helps me forget. I just wanted to write this because I don’t have anyone to talk to anymore and just wanted to get these things off my chest.