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I hope this is okay to post here! Definitely wanted some momma input. ◡̈

After living in a suuuper cramped apartment, we finally bought our first house and I finally get to make my 17 month old daughter a beautiful room instead of just “a room with baby stuff in it,” but I’m realizing I am terrible at interior design 😅 and deciding.

My brain always thinks things need to perfectly match to look nice as opposed to feel cohesive, and I’m trying really hard not to accidentally create either a beige millennial nursery energy OR overstimulating rainbow daycare energy.

She LOVES Ms. Rachel right now, but I don’t want to do a super themed character room she’ll outgrow in 8 months. I’d rather pull inspiration from the vibe/colors/playfulness of it without buying giant Ms. Rachel wall decals everywhere lol.

Here’s my mind right now.

• I want color, just not super saturated primary colors
• I love muted pinks/corals/peaches/sage/mustard tones
• I want it to still feel visually interesting and joyful for a toddler. They deserve lots of color. It’s good for them.
• I don’t want the room screaming “PINK GIRL ROOM,” but pink genuinely looks so cute with her complexion and I do want some femininity in there.
• I’ll have a montessori floor bed setup
• I don’t think she’ll be playing in there. We’ll just read and do low stimulating things. I want this room to be a wind down room. If you got any input or had ideas that you saw and loved or whatever, I’m all ears!! 🤭 please help me not spiral lol.

Please be kind as I know the answer may be obvious to most but I’m an overthinker and emotionally charged and just want to pick anyone’s brain who has felt this or at least solidarity.

So, I’m a SAHM and I genuinely love being home with my daughter. The light of my life. Shes almost 17 months old. We are not in financial distress. All bills and monthly expenses are covered. This would only be to build savings.

Recently, I reached out to a former employer about weekend work (about 4-hour shifts). They called me back and seemed interested, and I told them I would go ahead and submit an application.

But about 10 minutes after that call, I started feeling sick to my stomach and ended up crying.

Now I feel completely torn. My husband is supportive either way and thinks it would help financially, but emotionally I feel like I would be “quitting” my role at home or abandoning my daughter if I start working weekends. I know that’s not true at all but it is how it feels and has given me a put in my stomach.

I’ve never been away from her for more than a few hours, and the idea of being gone even that long makes me sick to my stomach. I also feel regretful because I told the employer I would apply by the end of the day and it’s now 10pm and still haven’t started and now I feel anxious about seeming unreliable.

I guess I’m just looking for solidarity from anyone who has felt this kind of emotional whiplash when considering going from staying home to very part-time work.