This exam is making me question my fitness to work in healthcare.
Taking full mocks makes me feel like I'm losing my mind. I am autistic and I have a tendency to break down completely when frustrated and overwhelmed, and I really don't want to be whimpering to myself and slamming my hands into my head in the examination room like I do at home. I don't get it, I can finish exams at school, easy-peasy, with over half the available time remaining, without breaking a sweat, but this goddamn test reduces me to a slobbery mess at home. Just imagine what it would be like for me on the actual exam day.
I can do a mock of each section seperately and do just fine. But altogether, the whole 2-hour exam is just too much for me. It's not like I'm gonna get a nice long break between tasks when working in the future.
Do you guys think that there's any hope for me as a doctor? Doctors deal with so much stress and unpredictability flying at them from all angles, I'm terrified there's no way I could do it if I can't even handle the UCAT. Am I mentally fit to work in healthcare? I just feel so fucking lost and hopeless for my future.