struggling at new job and i feel like a big disappointment
for context: i came from a really prestigious school, with honors. i also topped the boards. however, i just can’t seem to keep up with this new work that i started a few months ago. wala kasi akong malalim na experience sa roles, that i try to give myself some grace for, but at the same time, pakiramdam ko lang ang bobo ko. ‘yung mga soft skills na mayroon ako dati sa previous job–project management, god, kahit yung pagkakaroon ng initiative to suggest and ask questions–down the drain. naaanxious na ako everytime sunday ends.
i really love the job and my priority is to learn always, but this one is just painstaking one. di ko na rin maiwasang hindi i-compare yung sarili sa ka-work ko na nag-tthrive sa work namin, minsan nga siya pa naglilead. it isn’t like me, na-train ako ng college na alam na never akong magiging pinakamatalino o magaling sa classroom. i just don’t know what to do. tinatry ko namang mag-take ng notes (!) kung ano pang dapat iimprove ko haha pero parang palala lang ako nang palala. is this even for me?