tired
i hate my dad. he does nth but sit around all day, yelling or hitting or making my mom feel bad for anything she does. i’m so tired of it. he’s a full on university professor but doesn’t pay shit for this house???? where tf does all his money go. my mom pays for everything and i mean everything. the only thing my dad used to pay for was my uni tuition (which btw is only 5 percent of what other students pay bcs my parents work there) and now he’s making my mom pay for it. he got so mad when i asked him to pay for it he destroyed my fucking door. he refuses to pay for anything but won’t let me get a job. i have to figure out a way to get a job behind his back. and he does nth around the house. he throws everything on the floor then my mom tidies after him. lowkey pmo from my mother as well, i wish she would defend herself. then my younger brother is worse. he hits me 24/7 and i’m not strong enough to defend myself and neither is my mom. my dad doesn’t care. as long as it’s not affecting him he doesn’t give two shits. he hits me as well. and it’s not like it’s justified. they hit for no fucking reason. just like that. my body is full of hits i’m so fucking tired. they’re both always fighting with anyone, always swearing. legit drain every ounce of energy i have. they use hurtful insults all the time. he’s so so rude to my mother oml. my youngest brother oh i feel so bad for him. he always tried to make things at home better, i just know it must be so heavy for him. i’m so tired. also i can’t even do anything without him blaming it on my mom. if all the anger was going towards me i give no fucks. but no. everything i do he blames on my mom. like for ex. little ex. yesterday i came him late from my lesson, just half an hour late, cause of the bus. and he got so mad at my mom. saying she gives me sm freedom(letting me take outside courses). and he started swearing at her and her fucking family. i’m so so so mad. i wanna genuinely just either end it all or win a billion dollars to escape with my mom and youngest brother