Hello and good afternoon. I am 34 years old and My mom was diagnosed with Narcissism when I was 12. My moms abuse was very severe to me as a child, she sold me/prostituted me to a 62 year old man when I was 15. While she was in the room. This happened several times. She physically abused me, verbally abused me to the point to where I now have body dysmorphia because she always told me I was huge, She had me wearing a woman's size 9 shoe when I was 8 or 9 and I wear a size 7 and discovered that a few years ago. She tried getting me to have 3somes with her and men when I was 15/16. She allowed cats we owned when I was 11 to 13 to multiply and ended up with 175 cats and she dumped every one of them on the side of the road. That isnt even a quarter of the things she did to me.
For some back story on what I'm going to say, My mom and step dad did not have a vehicle so they were using mine and my husbands. My mom came into some money from a truck almost hitting her and she bought us a car in exchange for the car they were using of ours. The title was never signed over to her or my stepdad, the car is still in my husbands name, every bit of it. Yesterday I needed to use the car because My husband and I are moving and the car is larger than our new one, She got very nasty with me and said "I guess I will walk into town" When I told her she was not getting in the car because we had agreed I could use it for moving and I needed about another hour. I also told her "do it, im busy" This was around 12:30pm. She then stated my stepdad could help me to which I said no, I said no because my mom makes digs at how messy my things are (I have severe depression and bpd from her abuse) And I wanted peace. She then said for me to stop speaking to her and get out of her life.
She has heart failure and Leukemia (not kidding) among other issues and I told her in text when she apologizes for selling me at 15 she can have the car back. She texted my husband and all she had to say was "are you bringing my car back?" To which my husband went off on her and told her that's HIS car and she needs to apologize for her abuse to me. My mom gets medicaid and can get transportation to doctors through that. I feel so guilty for taking back the car but I know she will be okay and can get through life. She was driving the car around 10 hours a day just around town for no reason, Im not even joking, she is obsessed with being in a vehicle. My husband and my partners (Im polyam) and friends Have told me I should not feel guilty because my mom does not feel guilty for what shes done to me and thats obvious. I just need some support right now, I will never speak to her again after yesterday.