u/Far_Rice_1252

I know that only a doctor can help me but I’m desperate to know if anyone has felt this way for an extended time and that it gets better.. I’m losing hope. I’m battling thyroid issues which I know can make things worse mentally/physically for me. With the mental + thyroid I am so sad and fatigued every single day I feel like I can’t do this life anymore. It’s hard to get out of bed, I’m always SO tired… I’m so sad even if I’m having a good day or having fun what I’m actually going through is weighing on my mind the whole time. I can’t keep my room or car clean. I live in mess! I don’t even know how I have a job anymore it’s so hard to get up. Something is always wrong mentally. Please someone let me know that they came through a hard time like this that lasted years and they got through it. Please tell me it’s brighter on the other side because I know I’m near my breaking point and I still have so much more to live for.

Swears it’s only once a month maybe a little over that.

I spent the whole month of May at my MM’s house as he had the house to himself. Today he picked his family up from the airport and we’ve barely talked since. I asked if I should expect him to ignore every text when his family got back and he said idk I’ll message you when I can. I feel overly irritated and so disregarded. Back to reality now I guess

I met my MM last May after I was transferred to his department at work. Before that I only saw him around often and I always thought he was handsome, but I never imagined I'd end up in this situation or get to know him beyond just passing by! When I started in said department, I was the new girl and became friends with someone who was already part of his friend group. Through them we were properly introduced.

Our group of friends/coworkers started hanging out outside of work grabbing food after shifts, going out for drinks, just casual hanging out. During this time he and I got pretty close. We texted constantly, more than I texted anyone else in the group. During the summertime he usually has the house to himself for about a month. We got together there several times while we were off work as a group. What started as group hangouts eventually turned into only ME being invited and everything changed.

Almost 1 year later, it's been fancy dinners wherever I want, concerts, hotel rooms once a week just to be able to sleep with each other, real intimacy I've never experienced before. We actually recently just picked up my niece for the day and had her come spend time with us at his as he has the place to himself right now. He's met my sister and brother in law. I know he loves me and I love him too 🩷