I(22f) is in love my (30m)boss and I'm confused.
Before y'all come at me to stop loving him because of the boss employee situation, just hear me out.
A little about me - I do not make first moves, I do not hint someone if I like them first. It's just something I do to safeguard myself and not out of ego.
He is one who does everything. Or. I'm probably connecting invisible dots.
First : he asked me once if I have boyfriend, and sometimes teases me if I have a male friend coming to pick me up. Told him I was at x , y and z and asks me if I was alone???
Second : I was once talking to another female colleague about seeing a guy on snapchat, he was right in front of us. A few days later he asks me if I use snapchat and says that it's immature or something like that.
Thrid : he chooses to sit next to me or infront of me atleast when we have team outings??, also we have this really goofy photo of us at a game and it's kind of hot and cute the way we looked together ( he doesn't have a photo like that we another female colleague who has known him for longer time)
Fourth: HE NOTICES EVERYTHING, a new jacket i brought, a new hairstyle , a new shawl. He casually asks me, but who notices all that???!!
Fifth: he casually jokes/teases me if I speak or hang out with another man in the office/ have a smoke with someone else. He says things like I didn't smoke with everyone etc
Sixth: fml, he knows how much I love smoking. He sends me a one view image of a cigarette lit in hand at his home and jokingly asks me come over ??!!
These were some of the major ones.i feel fucking jerk down my spine even if he casually touches me.
Now I know I sound like I'm mad at what he does, but I'm just confused and frustrated. He has girlfriend. Fml pt.2.
I need advice on whether I'm overthinking stuff or do men actually do this if they are interested.
Tldr: I want to know if I'm living in a delusion that my boss loves me back, or I'm just overthinking shit.