u/Fashunhoarder

New here and I am so #%!!?* lost

I was diagnosed with breast cancer in early April, exactly 366 days after my upstairs neighbor accidentally set the apartment building I lived in on fire and I lost everything I had.
There is no history of cancer in my family, and I am only 36. I am a single mom to a 7 yo daughter and have no family in the states (originally immigrated from Germany).

I thought I had a good partner. We had just celebrated our one year anniversary and he seemed supportive … only to take on a job overseas without telling me. He wanted to be closer to his son, which I understand, but he got upset when I didn’t jump for joy and barely commented on the fact that the same day he signed his contract my bone and organ scan had come back clean. My survival apparently meant very little. Needless to say I broke up with him, but he was the only support system I had, my life line.

I’m getting a DMX at the end of May. My dad is flying over from Germany to help out. I have never felt so lost and so alone in my life, and I don’t know what I have done that things have to be this hard for me.

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u/Fashunhoarder — 3 days ago

He bailed because I have breast cancer.

Two weeks ago I hyped him up on here because he seemed like such a genuinely good person. We had just celebrated our one year anniversary. I thought he was solid, an actual good man.

He took on a job offer to Europe without telling me. I know he wanted to be closer to his son, but he didn’t even give me a warning. He just sprung on me that he’s leaving early August right after I came back from an organ and bone scan to see if the cancer had metastasized. When I didn’t jump for joy he threw a tantrum that I ruined his day. After a while of back and forth he admitted that my diagnosis was too much and he’s running away to keep himself comfortable. I dumped him (via text, not my best moment) and blocked him everywhere.

I’m getting both my tits cut off at the end of May, and might or might not have to undergo chemo.
The last years before the diagnosis have been so incredibly hard, and I thought I had found one good thing in my life.

Protein shake because I can’t eat solid foods for the life of me.

u/Fashunhoarder — 6 days ago

I was married to a guy who hated my guts for almost a decade. My choices in men have been questionable (I’ve been in therapy for a long time, fwiw).

My boyfriend and I had our anniversary today and he planned the most fun and thoughtful day to celebrate. We started talking in earnest (meaning: exchanging numbers and consistent contact) after my upstairs neighbor burned my apartment building down. In early April I was diagnosed with breast cancer, exactly a year and a day after the fire.
I fully expected the situation to be too much for a new relationship, but he’s still here with his unwavering optimism and support and hopefulness.
I don’t know how I got so lucky.

Homemade quiche with a gluten-free crust, also made from scratch.

u/Fashunhoarder — 21 days ago