u/Fast-Guidance149

Flair samaj nahi aaya
Maine apne online purush mitra ko bola ki vo mere baare me gaana lagaye. Usne pehele to majak me Enemy and Insane gaana lagaya.
Par fir aaj usne Just The Way You Are by Milky lagaya
Ye wala part

Do-do-do, do-do, do-do, do (and it goes)

The way you walk, the way you understand me
The way you move, the way you just whisper me
The way you touch, the way you used to kiss me
I want you just, just the way you are

Do-do-do, do-do, do-do, do

Iska kuch mtlb hai ya main jyada bade khwab dekh rahi hu 😭

Flair samaj nahi aaya
Maine apne online purush mitra ko bola ki vo mere baare me gaana lagaye. Usne pehele to majak me Enemy and Insane gaana lagaya.
Par fir aaj usne Just The Way You Are by Milky lagaya
Ye wala part

Do-do-do, do-do, do-do, do (and it goes)

The way you walk, the way you understand me
The way you move, the way you just whisper me
The way you touch, the way you used to kiss me
I want you just, just the way you are

Do-do-do, do-do, do-do, do

Iska kuch mtlb hai ya jyada bade khwab dekh rahi hu 😭

Vo mujhe reddit pe hi mila.
Bohot achha hai.
I finally get how and why people try to become better and worthy of others. Bruhh 🥀Itna achha hai vo.
People try to find reasons to stay, I am trying to find a reason to leave. And am failing miserably. Aur ye mat puchhna kyun main usse baat nahi karna chahati. Usse unrelated ek dusri kahani hai.

Haan, ek aur cheez yaad aayi. Usne vn bheja ek baar. Uski hassi Uski awaj 🤌
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tldr
Ek dost ki tareef ki hai.

The pain distracts me. Ig. It reminds me of what i did.
Even a little of doing what i am doing makes me stop. Because i know what i am doing. And i don't want to do it. (I've been scared of getting an infection ever since i accidentally used the one with rust)
I wanna find a safe easy way to self harm which HURTS.

I didn't know which flair to put.

Anybody free?
To talk about my and your shit (eg-family touching, sh, prem)
And perhaps be friends?

I'm 16.

I didn't know in which sub to post.

I don't mean to be rude or offend anyone.

I just want to share a new opinion of mine ​and know your views on it.

I have no idea​ on how ​to describe what the feeling is that I want to talk about. So hence I'll use the words hurt/broken since I heard broken means deeply hurt/affected.

A broken/hurt person can't and should never engage whether it is ​talk or ​date or get in a relationship ​(whether friendship or romantic) with a​ safe chill person.

​A broken/hurt person will destroy the other's love​ and the relationship​.

A broken/hurt person is not good enough for a normal safe chill person.

A broken/hurt person will think they don't deserve it (whatever they want, a person or a thing). And they are right.

A normal person can't understand the broken/hurt person.

They can't relate.

A broken/hurt person can't be open with a normal person. Their views will come off ​as too strong and the normal person won't understand where it's coming from and would just tryna change it, IF the normal person continues to talk to the​ broken/hurt person.

A normal person would wanna be chill and joke about stuff. But a broken hurt person just doesn't have that kind of energy.

A normal person is a sweet baccha. Why should a broken/hurt person put them through their feelings?

Why pressure them with what the hurt/broken/affected person is feeling.

Tldr:

(Used Chatgpt for this​)

Not trying to offend anyone—just sharing a thought.

I didn't know which sub to post in.

I sometimes feel like people who are deeply hurt shouldn’t get into relationships with emotionally stable, “chill” people. It is unfair to put that emotional weight on them. And they won't even understand it, and it will ruin the person and the relationship between them, hurting both sides.

Curious what others think.

My dad was always a bit touchy to me. And sometimes my older brother was too. I don't have the guts and energy to say something to them now. I always wondered why my mom didn't stop them.
Now i realise maybe my dad manipulated or brainwashed her too.
I grew up learning from my dad that women were stupid despite being a girl myself. This is what he taught me. Made fun of women, comments against my mother too. And i believed him and copied his laugh. I think i hurt her. Because of dad. Laughing at the jokes he made against her.
Now i'm a bit older (16). My mom would make me help her in most of the house work. I'd help her by sort of being an indirect support when my brother and dad hurt her. No matter what i do, I'm still not enough.
I felt sometimes she hated me. She believed dad above us all (me and my brother). And she loved her son more than me. To the point she'd look at me with hate if my dad was angry at my brother because my brother and i were fighting. Even if it wasn't my fault that dad was angry.
I think all this might be because that's how she's been taught too.
My dad is an expert at manipulation.
I don't believe a single word which comes out of his mouth now. But my mom still believes him.