u/Fat_Nig_Flying_Up

Hey guys I will keep it short so after my last post asking about Sankalp, I made a Sankalp in the name of maa kali but after that from last 1-2 days I am not feeling alone I am feeling there's a bad energy around me, I feel it's so dark black trying to get me.. I am not sugarcoating about myself but I really have a very good energy sensation, I am really feeling and moreover even the little little sounds are making me scared and the worst part I usually sleep by 12:30 to 1 am but yesterday I slept at 2 am idk what kept me awake.

So this thing has been in my mind for a very long time.. So I have heard many people set a Sankalp/target to do your sadhna, but honestly i don't understand why I mean the core is logically that without a path of target your energies will distribute and flow will not be maintained, but then here comes what I think honestly if I see my life from a bigger perspective so all my wants and needs are the part of path.. I am a student so yes my target is for sure to focus on Career and building it up, I still love my ex and honestly I want her to give me a second chance for a relationship, these 2 things is mostly what I manifest for, but now doing sadhna for my good Career and getting the women/devi I desire I don't feel like I should do that

I mean what I want to say is that maa knows what I want and what I need just doing my sadhna will eventually outcome I trust maa she has eyes on me so I don't feel like I have specifically have to make a Sankalp of good career or getting my ex back and then do sadhna 😭

I feel like I should just do my sadhna.. I don't have any Sankalp I just do nama japa.. so I don't need help actually but need a clarification like is Sankalp really an important part of sadhna? Moreover if it is important how can I know my destination to make a Sankalp?

So I switched from CBSE to MP board this year 12th, my subject is commerce and it's been 6-7 months I haven't studied anything 😭 now I'm worried please help guide me from where and how to start and moreover I should go with all books or pariksha bodh? I've heard people saying paper pariksha bodh se aata hai mostly so?

So I am from India, age 19 and since my childhood I loved gaming, recently from last 6-8 months I started playing more games (I never had any pc to play games so mostly watched, played games that are available on android and gaming zones, well life's been tough lately I am looking for genuine new gamer friends doesn't matter the age or gender.