25M
Until mid 2023, i was sexually more active and masturbated a lot. Because of excessive masturbation i think my penis head has become very sensitive
I am physically fit, sightly muscular and have good stamina but during penetrative sex i ejaculate even when I have so much energy left in me to continue further
Sexual energy is more of a time waste. I dont fully understand how our brain works, is there really a net benefit in abstaining? Assuming there is, why cannot i convince myself towards it. Looking back i realise most of life's fuck up happened becasue of pursuing it (though i dont want to regret). Started with the false pride to prove worth, then rush to become independent so that i could take her care, detoxified, came back, became even more dependent mentally, entered sexual intimacy, parallelly frequent masturbation to pass time (and in a way escape from life), then reality kicked in, broke up with gf, started serious career afresh, after 1.5-2 years let myself get become a slave of my sexual desires, continued throughout, then started paid hookups, but morally couldnt make peace with it, now I'm well placed career wise trajectorily and at last here i am attempting to take a bhishma pratigya
Will try to come here, post regularly -- progress, issues, triggers etc
I was a drug addict and am clean for more than 7 years now. I have my why apropos drugs, but dont have a clear, sustainable and time tested why for celibacy
Hae keshav, guide me 🙏