How do I know if I have a crush?
I've searched up for answers so many times like a love sick maniac who doesn't get the depiction of love. I'll say it now, I'm still young so I myself can understand why I don't understand it or why I don't feel it yet.
(other than family love ofc. I love my fam, they give me plenty enough of love)
I get the same answers, word by word with the signs too. But no matter how many times I searched up its meaning, it never relates to how I feel.. Like my mind pushed aside that idea. My heart pumps so fast whenever they're around, but my mind doesn't seem to want to accept the fact I might have a crush.
Maybe I'm just being dramatic.. I'm just too young to understand. I never get why people starts dating at my age. I never have once gotten curious into getting into a relationship.
I said to them that I would think about how I feel for them, but I don't want to let them be hung up with my words, feeling hopeful that I may accept their confession. It's waking me deep in my core.. Im trying so hard to understand my feelings. I don't want to hurt any of them. I don't want to make them wait so long just to be disappointed. That's what I fear.
Am I an ashhole for being like this? I feel like a prick. And I hate that I'm doing this to them.