I can't stand being left alone but i don't want to tell anyone irl
A vent but advice is welcomed.
I'm 25, have had a stalker since i was 13. Told the police a million times, nothing was done, he raped me last year.
For a very long time i was not left alone, i was always with a friend, my partner, my manager or staff. Always with someone and he raped me on the only day i was alone.
Now he is in jail, after a long time of me fighting for it. It's only been a few days tho but i've been physically alone a few times since then. Like, i understand everyone has a life besides me and i'm happy about it! But i'm also terrified whenever i'm physically alone somewhere, i've been crying a lot about it. For years i wasn't and the one day i was i was raped. I'm terrified even if he is in jail.
How do i know a random man will not obsess over me again? How do i know no one will enter my apartment again? I'm stressed because the sentence is so short so i can't stop thinking about my future if i'm even here by then. I have no idea how to be an adult alone, i'm so used to have someone with me all the time. I don't want to burden anyone but it's been a few days and it's just getting worse.