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okay so i have a therapist and a psychiatrist and am on numerous antidepressants/anti anxiety/sleeping meds with a fun variety of mental illnesses including ptsd insomnia major depression generalized anxiety and most recently exploring the idea of BPD. so, ideally i would love to not go to an inpatient program but here’s my issue, i would consider myself suicidal in that i would pretty much be okay with dying and would prefer it to happen seeing as i don’t see a future in which i am happy/able to sustain myself independently/able to achieve goals, however i do not have any sort of plan and do not intend to harm myself in any way. (trying to be as nondescript as possible i hope this is ok with the rules) i recognize the actual process of leaving this earth is a lot harder than some realize and i am not cool with failing (again lol) and dealing with long term health complications, SO i have no sort of plans on attempting anything at all. and i realize this is what most mental health professionals are most concerned about (do u have a plan) so im thinking these thoughts would be ok to share without immediate threat of inpatient but im not sure. any thoughts or anyone gone through this sort of thing ?

i love this show, i’ve been watching since 2016 when i was 15, and yet the latest season has me so depressed. sorry if this is a common theme idk if it is but oh my god. i have loved this show so dearly, loved the plot lines and the characters, loved it since it was a weird sci fi on netflix not widely advertised. but Els ending. that made me never want to watch it again. because what’s the point? they made that little girl suffer all those seasons, endure all of that character development, have her father figure say that she will make it out and have her own life and kids, just to kill her? sure she may be alive, but even if she is, what kind of happy ending is that? what does that say about the power of friendship ? yknow, the whole theme that the show is trying to promote ?!? it’s so dumb. it ruined the entire show for me, and it seems misogynistic and just stupid writing.