I just feel stuck between disappointing my parents and disappointing myself.
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Back in 10th grade, I wanted to take commerce. I was actually interested in it, but my father forcefully pushed me into PCB because apparently “good students take science.” At that point, I convinced myself maybe things would work out eventually.But they didn’t.
I never wanted to become a doctor either. After 12th, I had plans for biotech and research. I researched career paths, colleges, opportunities,I even explained everything properly to my father. Initially, he was against taking a drop year too and wanted me to join a private university instead.
Then one uncle’s (my father's friend)daughter took a drop for NEET, and suddenly everything changed.Overnight, it became “you should take a drop too.” Now I’m in Allen preparing for an exam I never truly wanted to give, and I regret it every single day.I tried explaining that forcing myself into MBBS would only waste more years because my heart is not in medicine at all. But instead of listening, the conversation turned into emotional blackmail.“If not MBBS, then do BA from some local college and prepare for government jobs.”That sentence honestly broke something inside me.
What hurts the most is knowing that relatives’ opinions and comparisons had more value in my life than my own interests. Somehow everyone else got a vote in deciding my future except me the person who actually has to live it.