I don’t know anymore
My wife (let’s call her W) and I opened our marriage around 3 years ago and while I went on some dates, I never had capacity to peruse anything and I was okay with that. My wife while having gone on dates ended up in a relationship with someone and they’ve been together now for 2+ years.
W and I own a house and at the beginning of May, gf and gf’s kid moved into our house and we are now all cohabitating. The honeymoon phase has worn off and now I’m starting to feel like a stranger in my own house and a third wheel to my own marriage. At the start of opening our marriage, we had such strong communication and now it’s like that all went out the window.
Since July of last year W had been spending most nights at gfs place so she has had time to adjust to living together, dynamics, etc where as I’m now coming into the picture and it feels like I’m supposed to just know live with an almost stranger. There were initial conversations regarding living together that all 3 of us were part of but as we got to the point of actually living together, there has been no further chats. Even fundamental things like expenses and who is paying what hasn’t been discussed, even after asking to have this conversation.
C and gf both are strong willed, stubborn, and dominant, whereas I’m a shy introvert who is a pushover the second someone is frustrated and terrible at social cues. My bedroom, and I say that in the sense C barely sleeps in there lately, has become the only place of reprieve for me but how long can that be sustainable. My instincts are telling me to just run away from it all, that it’s easier that way.
Im not sure what I’m expecting of posting this, maybe it’s to just say these things so if you’ve read this far, thanks.