Afraid i’ve gone overboard

I’ve struggled with many types of eating disorders in the past/ very weird eating habits and recently had a dreadfully small but slow relapse which i kept denying to my close friends and family, but having realized today that it really was affecting me when i had a conversation with my mom. I don’t know how to stop it anymore, i always end up relapsing i want to recover more than anything but i don’t know how to overcome my fear of seeing my recovered body. Does anyone else have this struggle? and how did they get over it?
(also sorry if i tagged wrong, I’m new to this subreddit)

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u/Fine-Marionberry-247 — 5 days ago

eats of this fine day

veggie patty, no sugar added ketchup.
thinly sliced banana & strawberries with peanut butter…….cold brew mocha!
is this aesthetic or am i lying to myself 🤔🤔

u/Fine-Marionberry-247 — 13 days ago

omad again

the last vegan pastries from my “meal prep” earlier last week, surprisingly still good! frozen blueberry lavender donut & classic old fashioned donut

u/Fine-Marionberry-247 — 14 days ago
▲ 14 r/omad

vegan burrritooo & totssss

i died right after
1000% worth it and basically free since i paid with my tips 😌

u/Fine-Marionberry-247 — 15 days ago