I hear people whispering and laughing, they are talking about me
Work and friendships are made so stressful because I hear people whispering and laughing and automatically assume they are talking about me, I was recently diagnosed with OCD and have to tell myself constantly they are not talking about me. (Self reassurance I know, I am working on this.) But then I tend act differently towards these people assuming they hate me and are being deceitful. I start to act weird and distant and when they eventually do stop talking to me or they feel my vibe is off they drawback and this reassures my compulsive thoughts. I’ll be like “I knew they didn’t like me all along” “I knew they hated me” it’s exhausting and I’ve been working hard to find an OCD trained therapist but currently I have Medicaid until my work insurance kicks in, about 2 more months. (I having trouble finding one that takes Medicaid for my region) I’m just exhausted and have isolated myself. My compulsions aren’t as bad as they used to be or maybe they are more mental now. When I lived with roommates I would put my ear against the wall to listen to their “conversations about me” or put my hear to the bottom of my door. I may not do this anymore cause I live alone now. But I’m tired honestly. No reassurance I just needed to vent to a group of people who would understand