u/Firm_Leading737

Hey I'm 16F and recently well not really I never wanted children I don't like them I don't Wana hold them or even babysit them I can't stand them honestly I don't know what's wrong with me and why am I like this but recently a lot of people has been asking why I don't want kids and to be honest I tell them the truth and they are so shocked that I feel embarrassed that I told them the truth they talk how it's a blessing how it's a god's miracle Wich it is but sometimes it's just not for the person but they just don't understand.. I've been trying to convince my self to like children but I end up back at the beginning I'm not saying my parents are forcing me to get pregnant yeez no I'm still young but when I have a conversation about kids with someone they always say the positive things and never the negative I don't believe that pregnancy and then 18 years of being responsible for someome is the greatest gift so I usually shut the conversation down and don't Wana talk to them ever again am I the asshole for not Wana talk about kids that I don't even want?

So for Context before y'all get mad I 16f and my ex friend is also sixteen I think (I'm not gonna use her real name so let's just go with Pam). So Pam has this habit of not going to school like she's going to school once a week if we're lucky twice and about few weeks ago when she wasn't in school at all she asked me for my entire notes boo for technology let me remind you it's a massive A4 notebook plus half of a small one .

She messaged me one day saying she needed everything again that she has lost her notebook and asked me to send over the notes (she texted me when I was in class) so I texted back that I would that she just needed to remind me at like three pm

So she did remind me and it took me like an hour screenshoting everything and taking pics of the notes but then i realized I didn't have to do it because like few days earlier when I asked why she hasn't been going to school she said she had free will and that she was just too lazy so that day when I was sending her the pics but before that I literally asked her I quote "Why should I send you the notes when you're not even going to school" then she started to beg me for the notes and promised me that she would go to school so I caved in and sent her the notes and guess what it's still the same nothing has changed last week I got angry becouse she wasn't in school again and asked me for notes from one specific class I told her no and blocked her.. so am I the asshole?