I’m a 23 year old woman and yesterday I had an episode where I became impossibly angry. I’ve had these since I was a child. I don’t fully understand them, but I know it needs to end. Yesterday I went to lunch and it wasn’t good. This triggered an extreme reaction from me because I have only 50 dollars in my bank account. My fiancé was with me and he is in a similar situation. He didn’t understand my immediate anger and decided the best option was to avoid me. This made me angrier because I was crying right in front of him and he left to clean another room. This is when I went fully into the episode. I cut up one of my belongings and then threw a portrait of us on the floor. The picture shattered and he came back. I immediately realized my actions and was horrified by it all. I have no idea how to break this cycle, but I feel utterly inane.
I’m a 23 year old woman and yesterday I had an episode where I became impossibly angry. I’ve had these since I was a child. I don’t fully understand them, but I know it needs to end. Yesterday I went to lunch and it wasn’t good. This triggered an extreme reaction from me because I have only 50 dollars in my bank account. My fiancé was with me and he is in a similar situation. He didn’t understand my immediate anger and decided the best option was to avoid me. This made me angrier because I was crying right in front of him and he left to clean another room. This is when I went fully into the episode. I cut up one of my belongings and then threw a portrait of us on the floor. The picture shattered and he came back. I immediately realized my actions and was horrified by it all. I have no idea how to break this cycle, but I feel utterly inane.