u/First-Kiwi-4637

28 now. Struggled a lot with SH in my teens and finally stopped with help of meds and life changes.

Last month I’ve felt dreadful, suicidal, just not with it and not myself at all. Work has been really stressful and I keep getting into trouble. Not by any wrongdoing, I work as hard as I can and work overtime to keep up with deadlines.

Got into trouble today, and I spiralled completely, couldn’t stop crying. Needed and outlet and felt trapped, you know when you’re paralyzed with it and you can’t talk? It was ridiculous how something so small triggered me. Anyway, relapsed. Felt better instantly, now just really disappointed that I can feel this teenager crawling back out of myself after so much hard work. I got through it before, but I use all those coping mechanisms still to this day (meds, exercise, running) and it’s obviously not enough. What now?

Do you ever do a happy dance when someone doesn’t flag you down at a bus stop? Or when no one wants to stop and you can cruise right past? I think I would

Thank you so so very much. Got back after a day at work to grab my bike to cycle home and found it missing. Ended up in tears down the phone. Went and asked the station reception people, and asked what colour ot was. I was told two blokes had rescued my bike from a couple of kids trying to nick it. If this was you, thank you so much. I’ve learnt my lesson and will be using a beater from now on! Please get in touch if was you