u/FirstSnowz

I'm not talking about VLLD / LLD stuff, I'm talking about the real weird and hard to justify shit like:

https://preview.redd.it/2sytocao1r2h1.png?width=646&format=png&auto=webp&s=f82e5252ffbad2274fdbd90af486ffdb1cfe5e2f

I might be alone but hoping there's at least one other enjoyer, cause I got some stuff to give ya.

Early on in my D2R journey after my first big trade I had a lot of runes and didn't really know what to do in the game, so I decided I wanted to just go around making things like ^

I have two full stash pages of ridiculously unnecessary 'minmaxed' gear like this (not just poison Jewels, others too) that I used to turn my new toons into literal normal difficulty Gods from levels 1-40ish

I'm not looking for trade value - even though some may actually have a bit. I'm taking an extended break and looking to give all of it away to a fellow enthusiast

All that I ask is that if you're interested, meet me in game and show me a few pieces of gear you've collected with similar interest, so I can least make an effort to avoid passing them to someone just collecting free shit to try to flip for a rune

A bit of preachy bullshit to start, fair warning: To start, you shouldn’t cheat. You should strive to be the person that can confidently say you’d never cheat, regardless of the pressure. I actually proved that to myself on my first exam of MS1. Non-trad, Army Vet. Very low undergrad GPA (below 3.0), online degree, no masters or postbac but 516 MCAT going into a mid-tier MD. Imposter syndrome strong, felt way in over my head. Exams were still at home with a virtual protector due to COVID.

I left some review materials in my bathroom under some towels (clearly shameful behavior with those towels, I was alone in my own house lmao). Exam was kicking my ass, and I was having many “what the fuck am I even doing here” moments. Went to bathroom and sat on toilet for 5 minutes debating about grabbing my notes. I’ve never been a good student anyway, nearly got kicked out of my high school for skipping too many classes, like I said very low undergrad GPA. And I’m the only one that would know if I looked.

But I just really hate that fucking feeling in your gut when you know you’re doing something wrong, or lying, or saying / doing something you’d be ashamed of if a specific someone or even anyone at all saw. And somewhere between basically flunking out of undergrad and enlisting in the Army I just decided that as long as I’m always acting in a way where I never have to feel THAT, I’m doing okay as a person and I can figure everything else out.

So I didn’t look. I felt too guilty already just from leaving materials in there. And, very poetically, I failed by 1 question lol. But at the end of the week a question got thrown out and I ended up passing. That wasn’t karma for my “not-cheating” or anything, that’s not what I’m saying and this would probably be a better story if I just failed and accepted it. But I felt good about myself and passing and I did fine the rest of medical school.

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HAVING SAID THAT… comma,

I never expect anyone else to act the way I do, that’s just how I chose to do it. And especially in undergrad, everyone still has different goals, things are stressful and hard, yada yada.

Telling the instructor was the “right” thing to do and I’ll never criticize for doing the “right” thing, so I’m not criticizing you at all.

But honestly, I really don’t give a shit if someone looked at their phone after the instructor walked out during a Cell Bio exam in undergrad. That’s not the type of cheating that will get someone all the way through medical school until they’re in a position to harm patients, or on a team next to me where I’m concerned. It’s really just the type of opportunistic cheating someone does when they’re just trying to get by, give themselves a little breathing room, etc. Someone with their shit together probably wouldn’t risk it.

Is it wrong? Yeah, I think so - honestly it felt weird even distinguishing “types” of cheating just then. But ultimately I feel like they should be their own judge of that. If they get caught - so it goes. But given how inconsequential things like that seem to me, and how much ‘telling’ on someone can fuck them over, I PERSONALLY feel better about myself looking the other way. And yeah sucks with the curve but whatever.

As a student, you are supposed to ‘tell-‘ that’s what’s expected of you and will never be the “wrong” choice, and if someone is the type of person to always do exactly what they’re supposed to, that’s generally a pretty good person.

I’m writing all of this to say - I just think there’s a lot of value and maturity in being able to look at someone else doing something “wrong,” assess how much it really matters, and act accordingly.

That perspective may seem like a kind of goofy thing coming from an Army vet especially, considering that the surest way through a contract is to do what you’re told. But honestly being able to do my 5 years smoothly - while maintaining that perspective - provides me with some confidence in my morals at least

If I knew one of my friends cheated on a quiz in medical school, for example - it would be surprising but you really can’t cheat your way through medical school, and I was fully confident that all of my friends were all just as capable and qualified as I was. I’d rather not think twice about it so we can all have a good day. And I try to give people I don’t know very well the same benefit of the doubt I’d show my friends until I have good reason not to. If it happens often, yeah I’d definitely give it some more thought.

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Just some food for thought. I feel like Premeds especially might benefit from hearing this perspective since many of yall are the type to do what they’re supposed to and just move forward being successful and responsible and that’s all they know. Again, you’re an MVP, rock on. But you can learn a lot of empathy from a little grey area and still be a good and responsible person, too.

I gotta go reassess my life to make sure everything’s still good after reflecting on how I’ve chosen to spend a completely free 30 minutes. Hope you’ve enjoyed my below 0 percentile Casper post (is that still a thing)? Toodles.