u/Fit-Tooth966

I know, I know, “lose weight”. But still, it’s frustrating. Something that takes a size small person a few hours to make for themselves can take me days or even weeks as a size 3XL.

I’m working on a short, halter top dress and it’s setting up to be a total of 100ish hours. The amount of time it took me to make a single cup for the chest portion is how long it takes to make an entire crop top in a size small, from what I’ve heard people say.

I’m also making a set of mesh sleeves, and I haven’t been tracking as exactly as I am with the dress, but I’m not even a quarter of the way done with one sleeve and have done the ultra cropped torso piece, and it’s been 2 sittings. This sitting, being only a small piece of the back and the piece of the sleeve, has taken me 3 hours.

I’m just annoyed at how much more work it takes for something so simple, just because of my size… I understand why it works that way.

Everyone has a preference, and nobody likes talking to someone and finding out later that the person they thought met their preference actually doesn’t.

Then they’re put in a position where they feel like an asshole if they stop talking to the person over their body type, or they have to try and go against their preferences to be with the person anyway, which usually doesn’t go well for either person.

Even just one full body pic on every profile could save a lot of hurt imo

Edit: this includes people preferring skinny, people preferring fat, people who have a preference on breast size, height, whatever can be found in a full body photo. Not a fat shaming thing.

I’m now gonna have to deal with the consequences of those choices, having to get creative with certain meals and make ingredients stretch more than I’m familiar with for the next 2 weeks.

Normally I’m so careful, I don’t know why I made the choices I did. I usually take inventory first and prioritize restocking my usual things and whatnot, and I didn’t. I usually use a lot of coupons and prioritize sales, and I didn’t. I usually keep the “fun” choices like chips or candy for the end when I know everything else is set, and I didn’t. For the first time in nearly 3 years, I just fuckin bought things I wanted, without thinking about the bigger picture, and threw things into my cart that I usually don’t buy without checking my budget first. Before I knew it, I went over budget, and can’t allocate anything more to fix my mistake.

I’m so embarrassed, ashamed, and angry at myself. I don’t feel comfortable asking anyone for help. I know it’s a reality of life that I need to deal with the consequences of my actions, and I don’t want to pass my irresponsibility onto someone else, and I also just don’t want to admit to anyone I know that I was so stupid when I know how strict my budget has to be. Going to a food pantry also wouldn’t help that much, because I have things like pasta, rice, and beans already, and can make my own bread if I run out. I just need to live with it and do better next time. And until then, I’m kicking myself over it