u/FitWitchD

I had an ancestor come through yesterday meditating and I channeled and wrote down everything that came up. Her name, approximate date of existence? Maybe not birth date but certainly a year that was impactful for her. Also, her career and possible cause of death.
I’d love to hear if you guys could tap in. I’m curious to get deeper and learn more about her because I feel she’s very necessary in the next step of my life. The name begins with the letter V. I will post the photo of my channeled writing notes with her permission after a while. 🥰

Where was she from? (I have a few possibilities written, fairly close to each other.)
Any ideas on the year that came through?
Any additional information V may have wanted to share?

I had a legal case against the perpetrator who took a lesser charge, got out immediately, did NOT have to report as a sex offender, and still has an open dance studio for both young adults and children. He has been grooming young dancers for over 18 years - alleged by 35 women who came before me.

How else can I stop this man from inflicting more pain onto women?

I have called the authorities numerous times as follow up. They do nothing and take none of us - all 30 some - seriously. I don’t know what else I can do. It’s debilitating to think he’s actively still doing this to young women and children. And he is - other people recently found my public social media posts about what he did to me and the women who came before me.

Please let me know what else I can do… I’m tired of doing shit the right way and not being taken seriously and perpetrators still being out here ruining peoples lives.

I’ve been in therapy for 6-7 years because of what he did to me and quit my entire dance career (I was literally on tours, videos, well known artists) because I was blacklisted for coming forward about these nasty choreographers in nyc.

I’d appreciate help, no victim blaming pls & thank you.

This is both a question and a comment

I’ve been in therapy for almost 10 years, diagnosed with cPTSD almost immediately but I feel like I’ve experienced more and more and more trauma… the horrors continueeee. All that to say that no matter how much work I’m doing, I feel like life has gotten heavier.

That being said, I’ve become extremely boundaried to keep myself safe.

I’ve noticed, especially after my boyfriend passed in 2023, that if my new partner violates a previously set boundary (making “jokes” about certain things that I said hurt me, which I call “negging”; doesn’t reach out to a person on time for something I’m asking them to handle which I know isn’t a boundary but moreso a need that was promised but unmet; family stuff etc) I will have a really big reaction to it. I haven’t had any luck receiving repair attempts in relationships, whether it’s bc the type of partner I choose or because of my explosive reactions, which leaves me reeling in my head about ways out of the relationship - which I really do love and want to be in most days. My brain will think “I need to get my own shit, I don’t wanna live with my ex, I’ll be so uncomfortable, I can’t believe I let myself become reliant on someone who will inevitably disappoint me, I’m not a priority” thoughts like that.

I know that a yelling or heightened response is not necessary for really any reason, and I’ve done a lot of work in therapy on it. But I do yell and I get litty boots and not in a cute way at all 👹 I become a wet gremlin

My therapist does mention when I talk about what came up before the reaction, it’s typically because of egging on or testing boundaries or even gaslighting when I’m in an already heightened state. I never had these big reactions on my own or even in other relationships prior to this past year.

I guess what I’m asking is… what do people do when their boundaries are being tested or crossed by someone who they reside with and love, and what can I do to prevent these reactions for myself no matter what anyone else around me is doing?

Touching grass and journaling are not gonna cut it these days yall I’m already trying lol help