Please tell me I’m not the only one who’s stood at the sink washing pump parts and bottles at midnight. By the time I finish washing everything, somehow there are already more bottles waiting.
I’m seriously considering getting one of those bottle washer. Are they actually worth it? Any recommendations? Thanks in advance!
I don’t even mean doing anything exciting.
I just miss those quiet Friday afternoons before becoming a mum. Finishing work, laying on the couch, scrolling my phone, watching something random, or literally just doing nothing without feeling guilty about it.
Now it feels like every part of my brain is occupied by something. And maybe the hardest part is… I feel like no one really asks how I’m doing anymore. Everything is about the baby now.
I love my baby so much, but I’m honestly just really tired lately.
For me, I wish I knew how all-consuming pumping can feel.
I went into it thinking it was just a practical thing — you pump, you store milk, done. But in reality it kind of takes over your day. You’re always thinking about the next session, planning around it, and it’s hard to fully switch off even when you’re not doing it.
I also didn’t expect how much trial and error there would be. It took me a while to figure out what actually felt comfortable and worked for my body.
A while ago I was pumping in a meeting room that couldn’t be locked, and someone just walked in. It was quick, they apologised, but something about it really stuck with me.
Since then, I’ve started to dread pumping. Even at home, if my MIL is around, I find myself putting it off or feeling tense the whole time. I just want to be alone, not worrying about someone walking in, not having to explain myself, not feeling exposed.
It’s already such a physically and mentally draining thing — why does it also have to feel this uncomfortable?
I was talking to a friend the other day and she said pumping makes her feel really happy, like it’s this quiet moment of love for her baby.
But for me it feels completely different. Sometimes when I’m pumping I just feel this wave of sadness come out of nowhere. I feel really tired, a bit overwhelmed, and honestly sometimes like I’m not doing a good job. I feel a bit guilty even saying that, because I thought this was supposed to be a positive thing.
Just wondering if anyone else feels this way when pumping? Or if you’ve had any emotional reactions around it?