u/Fit_Garden2308

Hi , so last year in may 2025 I found out that my gf (now ex) drunk texted her ex to come in a relationship with her with whom she broke up before entering into a relationship with me. actually in our relationship of 2 and half years sh cheated on me 4 times all combined and it was all her emotional cheating

1st time: she just went to a different city for a sports tournament where she got attracted to a guy and they were about to kiss in a bus but they didn't (this happened in oct 2023)

2nd time: when she was in her periods we met in a restaurant I was in a really jolly mood (yeah that pissed her off) and then she started to fight and told me to break up and stuff and then she messaged that ex which I earlier mentioned above and she just sends him some image of feaky text they wrote in a book and laughed off and she told me that if she wants she could get any guy but I convinced her and told her that I will be a great man for her

3rd time : she again met a guy in a sports tournament and he approached her and she got attracted to him and texted him without my knowledge and even invited him for icecream and chat session ig and later on he said we will meet and then we will go somewhere in my car for which she denied

(my point is why to even entertain other guy like this)

4th time: as I mentioned above she was drunk and texted her ex to comeback in a relationship with her

now for the 4th time it was the final nail on the coffin for me and I decided to leave her and I'm that guy who never raised my voice in front of her never scolded her for anything always apologised if sometimes I get annoyed which hurt her because she has an abusive dad trauma so that's why I was always gentle with her , and when she admitted that Abt her 4th time cheating I was hurt really hurt and she was like leave me I'm not your type and stuff and I confronted her that whats the issue with you huh why the hell you did this to me and then she hits me with "look at yourself you got cheated twice" (yes before this relationship I got cheated in a relationship before as well ) and man I literally shouted on her screamed on her and idk asserted dominance and took control over the situation in a really bad way because those acts of her was revolving inside my mind like crazy and then this illusion of her's got bursted and then from may 2025 to Feb 2026 we talk sometimes she always tried to convince me to get back because she was really invested in me and promised she will never do that like totally deeply invested in me to convince me for the relationship

and we would just talk normal and the moment a thing Abt her cheating comes out during the convo I really get angry and I also said bad things to her mom and dad as well and infact I called her a prostitute in an indirect way but it was wrong but she fought with me I did too but she never gave up on me , it's like I never stopped loving her but due to her acts or something at that time my love for her was suppressed and I was full of rage and anger and basically a guy who used to be pateint to his gf became short tempered but in nov 2025 I started to realise that I shouldn't be this much on angry on her and I should rather improve my patience because I was feeling a bit that she might have changed and I tried to heal myself from nov 2025 to Feb 2026

But in feb 2026 when we met and I still wasn't improved properly we just met we were normal she used to be flirty caring comforting with me all the time just to convince me for that relationship but I was soo sceptical about it at that time and during that we had argument and she was continuously like saying that I was angry at her alot and said hell lot of bad things to her and her family and it was crossing my limit and I just kept her my hand on her neck and I didn't do anything neither squeezed her cheeks or neck and I just felt really bad and she got scared and I just kept my hand and then I removed in 2-3 seconds and started to regret what I did I apologized to her and everything she accepted it but she was never the same after it , we eventually stopped talking

and then I approached her again in march 2026 that hey I'm really very sorry let's just get back into the relationship but things weren't that easy she has always been saying that she moved on from me and stuff but then I realised she truly hasn't and it was evident in end April 2026 and may starting 2026 because she used to talk to me flirt with me and everything but whenever I ask her abt relationship with me she says that she would have instantly start to date me but just because of 2 things that once I called her a prostitute (even tho indirectly) and second I held her neck even tho I didn't squeeze or anything it was just there still she says she can't see a guy like me as her partner or father of her future kids , and still we talked normally but since last couple of days we met one day all fun and enjoyment like we did in a relationship like she throwing tantrums and I was like in a joking way "yeah girl whatever" types

but then it was also that she told me that gates of me being her future husband is closed because of these and she is sorry Abt it and after that she also thinks that I will make efforts for her as if I'm her bf I just genuinely didn't get it and then we fought over something and we weren't giving up and were blaming each other and then she just straight away stopped talking to me and then I approached her after a day and told her that I won't fight with you and gave her reasons that why I see her as my future she still isn't ready to buy that when I loved her why got so angry on her and touched her neck and call her prostitute because a man never says prostitute to a girl he loves and tbh I genuinely regret all this shit from my side and also she was talking about marathon with 2 people, I asked her twice thrice who are they then I said if they are guys tell me , why to hide it then she was like "yeah , 2 guys so what you gonna do?" , and I was like why you getting so defensive she said , because I cana never be confident Abt other guys around you and you are insecure

my mind couldn't process (like girl I got insecure Abt other guys because of the way you entertained them when we were in relationship and then she just went ) and she told that I can't see her happy with someone else that's why I want to be with her and I just only miss her and I don't love her but the fact is a person would never forget what you did with him and still choose to improve himself just so he could be always a better version of him around you to take care of you . i just don't know what I should because whenever I'm with my friends my mind is soo fresh and dopamine spikes just wowww but the moment I see them off and reach my home damn , I'm surrounded by her thoughts again... pls help me guys and do read it and thank you to those who genuinely read this pls do.feel. to give me an advice because I need it .

TL;DR :

got cheated by my ex 4 times , fought with her from may 2025 to Feb 2026 where she showered her love and everything still whenever we used to fight we had fights but she never gave up.on me but when I said her a prostitute in sept 2025(which I still regret till date) in the fight and also held her neck(in feb 2026) and didn't squeeze it still , and when j approached her in march 2026 pretended she moved on but got pretty evident in April ending 2026 to mid May 2026 but since few days she is like we fight in normal convos we can't be together and after a day I approached her I won't still she is like no we fight alot and the two things I did to her always bothers her even tho I really became good guy for her but still she is above the feeling of seeing me with somebody else but I still love her (tbh just read the whole scenario because it's hard to cover everything in TL DR

thank you to everyone who read and gave their honest and helpful constructive opinions to me

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