struggling w dysphoria
unsure if this breaks any rules or is not welcome on this sub- feel free to delete this post if it does. i might delete it anyway if i feel like it.
i was wondering if anyone can relate/has any advice when it comes to feeling dysphoric or even dysmorphic when presenting femininely despite enjoying doing so at times?
i’m on my way to a party of a coworker of mine from a new job i just started and i changed outfits like 5 times bc every time i looked in the mirror, it didn’t feel right or it felt like i was faking or being a odd version of myself. i had a femme outfit then a mid femme then i opted for just kind of a outfit. looking in the mirror is hard sometimes. i’ve been growing my hair out bc i wanted to experiment with it esp after having a mullet for so long, i like it most of the time but sometimes i hate it. i started taking t again 3 months ago after a rlly long break and ive been enjoying it for the most parts but i think growing older and my body changing again and ive been working out has kind of thrown me into a loop and it’s difficult to look in the mirror and feel connected to who im seeing. both masc and femme presenting. i feel like i dont know which version of myself i really am or even like. getting misgendered happens all the time and im used to it atp but its still difficult for me and it can feel like im never gonna make sense to people and in turn to myself. i love looking pretty and wearing cute femme clothes but i struggle with the reality of it and also just changes happening again and how it impacts how i present, how do people cope?
idk this turned into a lowkey vent so again if this isnt the vibe of the sub, lmk if so or take this post down. just looking for any advice or solidarity tbh.