r/FTMfemininity

I know I feel trans. I know that there’s ~something~ up with my gender. I know if I am transmasc/ or a trans man I’d be a feminine one. I envy men and feel like I align more with masculinity in many ways. I struggle to relate to other girls. And yet, tell me why I get such intense gender envy of cis women sometimes? Maybe because I feel that’s inaccessible to me? I’m jealous that it comes so easily to them. I also have always felt like a pretty shitty woman. And it’s a struggle if perhaps those feelings are indicative of me wanting to be closer or further away from that identity.

I’m also not even that certain I have a non binary identity because sometimes I do feel pretty binary. Though maybe in both directions ? I don’t know. When I lean more into being a “woman” or trying to emulate aspects from these girls I may see, i end up feeling like that’s great for them but not for me. I feel mostly uncomfortable when I’ve done that. But I still feel a bit envious. And then very confused all over again. I’ve been questioning for so long now, I’m losing my mind a bit. I’m worried maybe I’m going in the wrong directions if these are the feelings that arise? Anyone else relate to this struggle?

I love dressing up feminine (except for dresses and skirts and makeup), I love acting "girly" and doing "girl's hangouts" more than hanging out with men.

I'm 21 and I've been identifying as FtM since I was 16, but lately my goals changed. I do have light body dysphoria, I would love to have top surgery in the future, but besides that I don't mind staying in this body.

Taking T is scaring me too much, I'm a person who fears irreversible big changes and a lot of T side effects makes me uncomfortable so I'm pretty sure I don't want to go through it.

I also love having my hair long (a "feminine" wolf cut down slightly bellow shoulders) and I feel ugly when I have my hair short in typical masculine way.

I have no idea if me feeling like im FtM was just a teenager hormones changing and confusing my identity, but I still love going by he/him and my chosen male name. I hate both she/her and they/them used on me.

I'm writing all of this here because I'm sick of masculine FtM's telling me I'm just a pickme girl who is fetishizing BL and gay men overall.

I feel so welcome here, like genuinely 🥹.
I am so happy there are other feminine trans men like me!
Yes WE love men in feminine clothing hehe
Clothes have no gender but u get what I mean.
All fem trans men are valid :3