u/Flaky-Function8590

I have been experiencing this deafening spiritual silence from God for as long as I can remember and Its so debilitating going to church anymore. Anytime I hear a testimony or tall it now feels like a slap to the face. Why not me too? Why can't I feel this love or peace? Believe me I can tried all the advice I can find whether its priesthood blessimgs, daily scripture reading, multi daily prayer, temppe visits, service, fasting, donating, perspective changes on maybe he answers in different ways Im not seeing, my hobbies. I'm at a loss and desperate to the point I'm super burnt out, I cant try anymore. I guess Im hoping some people might know why? Or what I am doing wrong or not doing enough of?

I have been dealing with significant autistic burnout lately and my mental energy is depleted, I know sitting in this won't help me so I have started researching more and more about how autism works from actual autistic people and want to know what all of your methods are. What works and what should I avoid?

PS sorry if you see this twice I also posted this in r/autism Just trying to maximize my info and if I need to take down the other one I will :)

I'm already a fan of this community as I don't meet really any auties irl. Anyways I'm trying to balance worklife with other life goals. For referance I'm working part time as a CNA and get assistance from the rest through an assited living facility (A topic of shame for me as in dating life I don't like to seem dependant even if the only thing they do is my taxes and billing). I need to somehow survive at least 5 months to have the funds to move into my own apartment to break free of my living situation and can't exactly turn off to cope with burnout due to the manager around here being of a certain political group ideology that think people like me should be pushed to burnout. She has a rep for getting previoys tenants kicked because she didn't like them but the state claims a lack of evidance. Tips or ideas on how to cope with this burnout?

Before I say anything I get there is a stereotype and pattern for incels among autistic men. I'm trying to work on any patterns that I might be unaware of to just generally be a more honorable and respectful person. I have made a habit for the longest time of observing waht to avoid with relationships to ensure its healthy and both me and that future mrs. feel equal to eachother and a team. But since I joined the dating scene a year ago I realize I spent to much ovserving and growing and not enough it the feild. I keep my self well groomed, and dressed, have a variety of hobbies, and am generally goofy once time builds that trust. Advice from anyone is welcome as well as follow questions and critisicm. For examples I usually try to start as friends with people before deciding if I want to date them but where I live a lot of the women prefer date first to know. I try to treat getting to know people like an interview by searching for there interests and gauging compatibility with such. I even do this when making friends. I usually socialize with the woman via dating apps (Hate them lol) as well as my church. I usually go with my female best friend Maddie, though I worry generally people assume we are dating just because of the time we spend together already had one dude within my church say he thought that. Im generally really good at making people laugh without effort. Cons to my dating life is my executive durabilities arent the greatest so I rely on disability income but also income from a part time job as a CNA. Thank you for lending me your minds and ears