u/FlashyBeach2709

one thing Ulta is improving on is the PLAYLISTS?!?! like we got KPop Demon Hunters AND LOONA on it this month?? makes me excited for how good the Pride playlist will be

my legs hurt, my hip hurts, my back hurts...

like my hip joint is hurting so bad and throbbing pain through my legs, my lower back is always an issue

it hurts to stand, it hurts to walk, and it hurts to sit down and to even lay down... usually laying down helps my pain but my legs and hip are all I can focus on, I just know it's gonna be hard to fall asleep tonight

I have OCD with my hair, I'm afraid of losing hair and getting my hair cut.

I've had nightmares where I willingly cut my hair or my hair is suddenly short. for about a year I would collect any hair I lost from my shower or hair brush to see how much I was losing. I still have to take anxiety pills before getting a tiny trim. I used to have to wear my hair in a bun everyday because if I didn't that meant someone could cut my hair randomly

I'm afraid of losing control and suddenly cutting my hair and... I get intrusive thoughts of cutting my own hair. I have hidden scissors before because I was afraid I'd suddenly grab them and chop my hair off before I could even think about it

just a little bit ago the intrusive thought popped into my head, I saw myself cutting my hair, I felt so sick as I just kept imaging it over and over, I couldn't move until it was gone because I was afraid if I did then I'd cut my hair off

it just reminded me how much I hate when people use intrusive thought to mean impulsive thought, and how I especially hate the hair cutting one because I ACTUALLY EXPERIENCE IT and it isn't fun and impulsive, it's scary and distressing and ugh