u/FlobbyBresticles

i take my meds with water from my Dora the Explorer mug

i wrap myself in my safety blanket with sleepy sloths when i start to rock or shake

i hold on to my build-a-bear stuffed axolotl when i begin to dissociate

i colour when i start getting suicidal thoughts

i wear my hello kitty sweater in public when im completely numb

i listen to disney music on my headphones when i go non-verbal

you used to like when i was little. am i still cute now? is this what you wanted? does it excite you to see me so broken?

one suicide attempt

1 1/2 months of inpatient care

eight psychiatric medications

twelve sessions of electroconvulsive therapy

its not working. its not working and it’s making me hate myself more.