Intrusive thoughts about imminent death
First time poster on here but I (24M) was hoping someone might be able to relate and maybe even talk me out of my spiral.
I went to the doctors yesterday with pain in the back of my neck but I was convinced I was dying. Normal blood tests, normal head CT scan, normal neuro physical exam - the doctor thinks it’s just a muscle pain.
I have spent all morning trying to avoid mental images of me collapsing or losing consciousness. I’m picturing my parents finding my corpse and then announcing it to the family. I’ve been going on long walks around the neighbourhood just because I’m convinced I’m more likely to be rescued if a member of the public sees me have some kind of health event.
Just wondering if this feeling goes away. It’s getting so bad that I don’t even notice my neck pain anymore. Just spent the last hour getting worked up about my obs (BP 88/60, pulse 87).
I used to take propranolol for panic attacks, do you think that if I started that back up again it would stop me from feeling so paranoid that I’m about to die?
Sorry I don’t know why I’m like this but I just want it to stop.