u/FlowEnvironmental252

I feel stuck in my hometown

I feel like I’m 17 years old again about to graduate highschool and feeling like I need to get out of here. I moved away for college for a year but due to some situations that happened I ended up moving back home. I’m honestly thankful this happened as hindsight is 20/20 and i wouldn’t be in the career path I am now if I hadn’t left.
However for the past year I’ve just felt stuck. I don’t feel like I’m progressing in life. I’m not growing or experiencing things. I’m genuinely just missing out on life.
I live in a pretty small city and I feel very disconnected from the majority of people who live here, their wants, goals, values etc.
Another main factor in this is I just feel like I have nothing here. I don’t have any friends, even the friends I do have I try and reach out to but they pay me no attention. I’ve tried joining different groups or going to activities around town with no luck in meeting people. I just feel so lonely. I’m in my early 20s and I feel like this is the time where I should be going out, meeting new people, figuring out myself and what I enjoy but that’s not happening.
I don’t enjoy doing anything anymore. I have the same routine of work, go home, work, go home.
When I moved away for school even for that one year I feel like I evolved so much as a person. I met some amazing people from all over that I really connected with and I have so many fun memories from that time. I attribute much of my self growth in the past few years to that time.
When I think about 2-3 years in the future if I’m still living here I literally just see myself in the same exact position nothing changed, because thats how it’s always been. The thought really scares me and makes me sad. I don’t want to wake up 5 years from now and realize I missed out on my life.
I’ve recently been thinking about moving states. I feel like everyone says you need to move away in your 20s and I’m starting to believe it. I think my hometown in holding me back. I know everything would not be automatically fixed but I would have more opportunities available for me than what I have here.
The only thing that makes me second guess this is obviously the cost and secondly my mom. We’re extremely close, she’s literally the only person I spend time with. When I moved away for college it definitely took a toll on her. It makes me really sad to think about leaving her again as we’re all each other has.

Messed up a clients hair for the first time out of school, feeling pretty defeated. Mind you it’s my 3rd week working.

Last week i had someone come in for a haircut and color consult. She told me that for the past few years she’s been going to another salon and using a high lift color to get her to a light brown. Last time she got her roots touched up i don’t know what happened but she left the salon a level 3. So obviously she wanted to be lighter. I asked my salon manager how I should go about this and she told me to use a color remover and then tone.

So today she came in I used a color remover and it obviously lifted really uneven. I went in for another round on the pieces that were darker but it didn’t do much. My manager told me to do a bleach wash at the bowl, I did and got it decently even but now had hot roots. I then had to tone her 3 separate times.

The first time the color was too warm, my client liked a more ashy brown. I toned again and when I dried a piece at the front it was really uneven and patchy. I don’t know what was going on at this point but there was a bunch of colors happening. So i went in a third time, I filled it first and then toned again.I really made sure to saturate and get every piece. But ultimately it still wasn’t 100% even at the end. We had been here for 6 hours at this point, way over the original appointment and my client needed to leave for work.
I dried her and asked how she felt, she said she was okay with it and left.

I feel so horrible letting her leave with the unevenness. She’s definitely the type that if she was unhappy she wouldn’t say anything. I told her to contact me if she changed her mind about liking it but ugh I just feel so weird. I’ve never really had anything like this happen before. I have a hard time already with perfectionism so it’s eating me up knowing she left like that. Also during this whole thing I had 2 other clients for haircuts that I had to squeeze in since the appointment ran over. I was so stressed out and i’m disappointed that I couldn’t give them my 100%.

Also was this a porosity issue? That’s really the only explanation I could think of as why the toner was so uneven.

Just happened to be randomly watching the 10pm news and saw that 40 cats were being hoarded in the apartment connected to Lindy’s Diner. I haven’t
seen anything reported on this yet. Thankfully they were rescued and able to be taken in by animal welfare. Poor babies:(