u/Flubbsi

Before finally coming out (at 29) I decided to put in some work and lost a total of 39 kg (85lbs) so far. I feel excellent with my new weight and also feel like a few years younger.

However, after almost 20 years in the closet, my mind doesn't feel quite right, and I still have a hard time accepting myself and my sexuality. Why do I still feel ashamed? I wish I wouldn't care so much about what other people think of me.

Lost 39kg (85lbs) so far.
There are almost no before pictures, I always dreaded taking them and avoided being in any.
Still struggling with low self-esteem and insecurities, I hope my mindset can catch up.

My insulin resistance was rather low and a mix of food with fast and slow acting carbs led to a rather wild day of ups and downs.