u/Forever_scared

Ok so I'm a 16 year old girl with brown parents and I think I may have ADHD. I want to get tested at least. But i have no idea how to bring this up to my parents. My parents aren't crazy but bringing up the idea that something is wrong with me wouldn't make them happy. They would say that I'm insinuating that they didn't do a good job parenting me or some bs like that. Another barrier is that I struggle to communicate already. I know and understand my language but speaking about this topic includes words I just don't know. Should i just bring it up to my doctor alone? I've thought about waiting till I'm 18 but I would've already started college. Thanks! 🙏

this will sound bad and insensitive but sometimes i wish i would catch a terminal disease and die. it takes the hard part of suicide out of your hands. your death would simply be a sad tragic one instead of a suicide that comes with huge connotation. no one will put any blame on you. no one you know will put any blame on themselves. it would finally justify the feelings ive felt for years. no one would bat an eye if you say you're sad. it provides something physical that people can see and sympathize with. depression can be very invisible to people you only interact with for a moment of the day. a disease shows that something is actually wrong with you and that your not just making things up. you would get constant reassurance and people finally trying to help. This is just a thought i'm not really suicidal. sorry this is kind of badly written i dont wanna proof read this.