u/Former_Struggle_1227

So i went to doctor today, which i learned she is not a reptilian (thank god) and she revoked my diagnoses, i used to have schizophreniform disorder but she gave me this new diagnoses: "Non-organic unspecified psychosis disorder, she said it's not chronic and can be cured. I am so happy, even tho i still hear voices and see shadow people or jinn's knowing that it wont be forever give relaxes me. She told me you are not competable for schizophrenia. Whatever, have a nice day!

So i made a post last week explaining my doctor's appointment and some of you wanted to see what happened this week. I learned that she wasn't a reptile wich is good. She unfortunately increased my meds by one mg and said "i know this makes negative symptoms getting worse but we need this" Ahnedonia makes my life a lot worse then hallucinations but she is the doctor. So for short this week was good and i didn't got diagnosed with schizophrenia which again is good. Hope you all have a great day.

After I realized my illness and my symptoms, I fell into a deep dark hole. I was in a new reality, and this reality sucks. I thought pyramids were my idea. Can you imagine how cool that is? Bragging to my friends and family, showing off what a genius I am? Turns out it was never my idea. I thought I was able to time travel, which again, I wasn't. I've never spoken to historical figures. I never told Stalin where the Germans were hiding, and it fucking sucks. Imagine you are the reason the Nazis were defeated in WW2. Imagine how cool that is, how much of a hero you are. Turns out, I am just a teenage girl who had an illness. I miss my psychotic self. I miss all of my friends who all cut off all contact. I was so cool. I was a genius. I was a hero who saved the world. Now look at me. It's just me with my negative symptoms and never-healing cognitive abilities. I used to read so many books, now I can't even read a paragraph. University exam is next year and I can't even study for ten minutes. I hate this reality.

I'm too scared. She is showing delusions. She is saying they put a "chip in my brain," "someone is squeezing my throat," and "someone is applying pressure to my head." I'm too scared if she is slipping into psychosis. She also says she sees a light shimmering. She could also be malingering to make me feel bad, because I thought there was a chip in my brain too (she usually does that to make us feel bad). But I'm scared because she could really be slipping into psychosis. I don't know what to do.

EDIT; My brother doesn't care if my mom sick or not and my mom says am all fine now, but i don't believe her im stuck in here right now.

So I've been hearing voices for the last 3 days. This happened for the first time in 2 weeks. I don't know if I have any delusions, but I am obsessed with the idea that CPS is coming to get me. I'm too scared of CPS and social workers. That's what I'm thinking about all the time. I started sleeping less and I'm too afraid of going through psychosis again. If I do, I'm afraid I will be diagnosed with schizophrenia. Am I going through a psychotic state again? Do you guys have any idea? How can I stop it before it starts again? I have a doctor's appointment on Monday.

Every time I eat meat (except chicken), I hallucinate. So every time I eat meat, I always get a metallic taste and I can't eat it. And I don't like the taste of chicken, so I think I'm stuck in here. My diet is pretty bad, only bread, yogurt, bagels, and anything that doesn't take time. But when I go out and wanna eat something nice, I used to always choose meat, but I can't eat it anymore because of the metallic taste. I'm trying to put in effort to make eggs when I'm hungry instead of raw bread, but it takes too much effort and I need vitamins and protein. Do you have any advice on how to make easy food without too much effort so I can get the vitamins and proteins I need?

I told my doctor that I know my illness now and that I joined an internet community to keep social isolation away (I still can't meet people in real life). She said, "That's in fact great, you are healing faster than I expected." But when I told her my negative and cognitive symptoms got worse and I don't have any motivation to do anything, she told me, "Just do it." If it's easy, you do it, girl," and upped my medication. So now I will live with more negative symptoms. I know she is trying her best to help me, but I don't have any positive symptoms now? Maybe she is working for aliens too and trying to get me by slowing me down? I saw her looking through her phone today, probably telling the aliens I don't fall for their shit anymore. That's why she sees me weekly it's not because she likes me, but to keep me controlled. The chip stopped working, so they captured her and replaced her with a reptile to get me.

I understand it now.
Whats yours opinion about this? Why do you think she looked to her phone during appointment, she was always writing something to computer always. Weekly seeing her must be sign of something bad, she dosen't love to see me that much, no one does.

I don't have schizophrenia, but I have been diagnosed with a schizophrenia-like disorder, schizophreniform. Simply put, I meet the necessary criteria for schizophrenia, but more time is needed to make a formal diagnosis of schizophrenia. I hope I am still welcomed here. My name is Umay.

I used to see hallucinations very frequently, but recently they have decreased to almost once a week. My doctor says I have delusions. I realized this while listening to Robert M. Sapolsky's lecture on "Schizophrenia." In it, he said something like, "People with schizophrenia might say the pyramids were their idea," and I used to think the pyramids were my idea. That is when I understood that I am ill.

Among my negative symptoms, there is a decline in personal hygiene and a lack of motivation. It is embarrassing to say this, but since I am completely anonymous, I suppose it is okay. I cannot even clean myself after using the toilet, and I have too many cognitive symptoms to count.

I hope I am welcomed here, and I hope I fully recover before receiving a formal diagnosis of schizophrenia, so that I can come here only to keep people company.