u/Forsaken_Link_8222

Probably going to forever.

How do you look at someone like that and not be with them? It makes no sense to me... I dont care what the deal is, if I was looking at someone the way you did me, NOTHING would keep me from them.

Man..

That cute little way you tilted your head every time you stood close to me.. Then stared in to my eyes and I could see your little eye twitches and the sparkle in them..

Dear lord, woman.. Why the hell cant I have you?

Why is this used as a joke or not real in some way? You dont have to do that.. The eyes are sacred. Leave them alone.

"The eyes never lie" as they say.. Yeah, well.. Then how come I sit here and think about them 20 times a day for I dont know how many months now? No one has looked at me like that. Youre supposed to marry the person that does. I cant even talk to you..

Sure, theres plenty of fish. But, none of them look at you like that.. I want that one. For THAT reason. Its already a publicly known fact by my dating history that I have a type.. Why does it have to look at me like that and I can't have it? Everybody else can have all the other fish. Give me that one. Ill be happy. I wont need another one.

Youre not solving a problem by pretending to be in love with someone. Love is NOT problematic. Can we as a society STOP doing all these stupid things that are ruining the world? The situation doesnt matter.. If is NOT problematic to love someone and if they want to get with you for that reason, then its NOT problematic.

The eyes are sacred. Use other tactics for your stupid, childish, b.s. that nobody but you cares about anyways.

People will remember you looking at them like that for the rest of their lives. We are ALL walking around LOOKING for the person that looks at us like that so we can marry them.

Leave that out of it.. Yall are running around pretending to be in love with someone so they'll want to be with you and you can what, get some attention? Okay? Where is the problematic thing happening there? You cant date for love now either? Becsuse of why? A slight age difference or something? It doesnt matter.. I hate this. Its gross. This is why the world is such a mess and nothing is working. Any random idiot can make their opinions known on the internet and theres way too many other idiots that will follow blindly.

Dating for love is NOT problematic. I will die on this hill.

Ugh.

One of the things ive always enjoyed taking my dates to do is going to the lake and watching the Perseid meteor showers in August and having a few drinks.

Its almost that time of year. You want to go? I cant even get to the point of even being able to ask this question with any of the cute girls that want to talk to me these days. Nothing has really changed. I still have a few cute girls making me talk to them from time to time. Ive just had a few birthdays.

Apparently thats the only thing you have to do to make them not interested in you anymore..

So, here I ask. Ive got one of you in mind..

I know where a random bench is on a like 10 mile hiking trail that overlooks the whole entire lake. I used to always go to the party spot where everybody else goes. But, I want to try this bench since I doubt many people know about it and you can get to it pretty easily without having to hike the trail. Seems like itd be pretty romantic and wed be alone. So, we could do whatever we wanted ;)

I know the answer is no.. But, you know.. I got to ask. So, ill post it here. Since I cant ask in real life or itd probably be a bunch of b.s. I dont want to deal with.

Maybe we can take a few snacks. When I was seeing you all the time, I thought about bringing you some Oatmeal cream pies and Boston cream pie snacks and asking you if you like cream pies. I love cream pies of all types. Oatmeal, the new peanut butter ones, those little boxed Boston cream pies, coconut, etc., ALL of them.

But, you know.. I never asked because itd been a huge thing and I dont want to deal with it. Im not allowed to ask. So, here are the things I cant speak in my real life.

We can keep it a secret if youre worried about it. But, it seems like thats never an option these days. Besides, id probably want to do it again and again because of the way you look at me. Not like I have a choice or any say in the matter.

Lord, I wish youd told me it was safe and okay to talk to you. Perhaps thats what ill be wishing for while watching the shooting stars by myself.

With life and all its stress and bills and day to day b.s., this is what I NEED. I havent had any form of stress relief in years. So, ill probably have a huge heart attack in the next 10 years or so. So, none of it matters anyways.

But, I cant ask.. So, here's my question to the void. Itd sure be nice and lord knows I need it and probably deserve it more than anybody. But, that's exactly why ill never get it.

This is something ive wanted to do for a few years now

Since all this time has passed and all the dumb stuff yall were doing doesn't even matter anymore at this point, can I have my little sister back?

Thats was literally all I ever wanted in the first place. Yall know damn well I loved the girl when you did all the dumb things you did..

I have family I was really close with that I cant see and haven't seen in years. Because, youre all just SO messed up and its like a circus there.

Can I have my little sister that always sat next to me for years? You already know I love the girl.. You literally took her away from me after like 6 years of watching all this and knew none of this was even an issue and you knew I loved the girl when you took her from me.

Dont take people's family from them. Its extremely messed up.

Even more so than making people out to be things and making them out to have done things that they didnt do like yall LOVE to do so much.

I dont even care.. Go say whatever you want. Nobody listens to any of you or wants to be around you and deal with all this dumb shit anyways.

But, let me see my damn family. None of it even matters anymore