Berate me
I need serious help! I'm an absolute nicotine addict and I don't know what to do!!!
I quit smoking 2 years ago but switched to vaping. Vaping was AWFUl for my body. At first it was fine but it led to high blood pressure, and cardiac problems such as an arrhythmia. (Most note I'd have that thing in my hand day and night, so I was totally abusing it but couldn't stop.)
Anyway about a month ago I switched to smoking again. 😑 The benefits are that I'm not inhaling as much as I did when I was valing and my visible health problems have vanished.. but I'm well aware that smoking causes bigger ones in the long run.
What started off as oh i'll only have a pack a day, is now turning out to be at least 10 cigarettes a day. One i cant afford this, the price in the UK is MAD for cigarettes! Since when was it £15 minimum per pack?! And two its gross, i hate the smell. I feel embarrassed and i want to quit but i love smoking 😪 and i feel like its the only way to ground and relax me. Without nicotine im full of energy (probs have adhd) and am quite go go go. Which isnt a bad thing, i miss that energy. I just cant seem to quit. I managed to not smoke until 10.30am this morning which is a win for me and in going to try and cut down. However ideally i want to stop. I just dont know how. I dont want to use the patches as ive tried before and i dont like how they make me feel.
Please tell me how gross it is and tell me how disgusting my skin is going to look 😂 i need help 😬